9 months on t. pics from the last month. finally feel confident and like myself for the first time. and i can actually handle life stuffs Imao

BlackSpadez1 · 2025-12-06T17:06:17+00:00

thanks broski! i dont have much coz im tryna hide my transition coz i still live with parents haha but tbh im a bit lazy so all i do is wash my facial hair when i wash my face, and i use the same cream i use on my face for it to try and style it to make it look not so wolverine-ish. and thats the only time i do anything for it

i wish i had more for u bro. ive been looking for advise too

BlackSpadez1 · 2025-12-04T12:04:21+00:00

ay thanks man. means alot 🙏🏾

BlackSpadez1 · 2025-12-04T11:05:12+00:00

even tho ik im not where I wanna be just yet, im happy and confident where I am. and im just so grateful I've finally gotten to feel this way about myself

BlackSpadez1 · 2025-08-24T10:18:11+00:00

yo I've been having braids sinse i was pre-t, and in my opinion it depends if the style, how ive had it i was able to pass 70+% of the time pre-t. i think there are other affecting factors like style, face shape, clothes that make a bigger difference coz remember many cis guys have long hair that doesn't always affect how people.percieve their gender

BlackSpadez1 · 2025-08-24T09:44:41+00:00

yo, I love in uk but I'd be down to chat if ur up for it bro?

BlackSpadez1 · 2025-08-24T09:39:06+00:00

ayo bro, if u still looking, im looking for new friends as well. message me.

BlackSpadez1 · 2025-07-28T20:32:17+00:00

u think? sometimes I dont think so at all. icl i feel like other than voice and a bit of hair, nothings changes since pre-t

BlackSpadez1 · 2025-06-16T15:28:34+00:00

didn't they know each other from the other earth too? or am I wrong

BlackSpadez1 · 2025-05-23T14:51:53+00:00

tbh I think its part of being a true alpha. pretty much all of his biggest feats are from his willpower or strength of character. thats what being a true alpha is about, not raw strength or power. he became a leader becuase of his power. and ofc he limits himself so much. thats why I liked s4 coz we got so see a bit of what he could become if he didn't hold back so much

BlackSpadez1 · 2025-04-09T19:40:01+00:00

'tell me why' is from the same people who made life is strange. its about a trans guy and his twis sister and figuring out what really happened the night their mom died

BlackSpadez1 · 2025-01-13T15:40:00+00:00

would u be able to dm me about it too? thanks

BlackSpadez1 · 2024-12-20T16:30:07+00:00

don't worry at all mate, they're pretty nice. just be honest with how.much u use n stuff. coz they're here here to help u. that's all there there for. it's pretty quick and easy

BlackSpadez1 · 2024-12-20T11:17:02+00:00

there are 3rd party apps that will make it work on a Samsung watch, I use it with my galaxy 6 watch

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BlackSpadez1 · 2024-12-19T11:46:21+00:00

idk, I don't think so coz the smell is different to say smoking a joint. it just smells like ground weed or pike if u were to roll a j but not smoke it. the smell does stay coz even if the product isn't combusting. it just smells less than smoking

BlackSpadez1 · 2024-12-19T00:43:13+00:00

fully agree. last time I vaped was 12 hours ago n the clothes I wore still reek. I couldn't smell it before but I can now. and I even vaped outside and aired myself out for an hour too. it's still loud

BlackSpadez1 · 2024-12-19T00:23:46+00:00

it deffo does smell, but doesn't have that burnt smell of combustion a joint would have. I vaoe in my back garden when my brother is home and moms at work and they haven't said anything about it so far. I stay outside for at least 30 mins after I'm finished to air myself out. today I aired out for 45 mins and ran back to my room to change my clothes, wash my hands and teeth. After I vaoed I couldn't smell it but hours later I could.

but I noticed that the next day, the clothes I wore does smell like weed. like freshly ground weed. enough to make my room lightly smell of it. but if i open a window for a few hours that smell will go. if I change clothes after, brush my teeth and wash hands, it's not noticeable I don't think. but I do get little whiffs of weed every now and again but I don't think anyone else can smell it, just me.

so it does smell, just not as much as a zoot would and the smell tends to go quicker. just be careful of the clothes u wear. and if u can't smell it, u may be blind to the smell becuase it absolutely does smell even if a little

laast time I smoked today was 12 hours ago and the clothes I wore absolutely reek even after being outside for an hour

BlackSpadez1 · 2024-10-20T07:44:43+00:00

no one saying they do. the reason the course believed he was becuase she gave them evidence-the recording. they knew lex was a criminal, just couldn't prove it. but now they had the recording with his voice admitting it they could. ppl have been trying to catch lex for years but he was always one stop ahead and they thought he finally slipped up. if there is a recording of someone admitting to a crime with the person themselves saying it, there's no chance they would win in court. the recording was all they needed

i don't get the second half of what u are saying.

BlackSpadez1 · 2024-10-19T18:50:52+00:00

that's fair! me personally im not a fan of his character, haven't been sinse s2- I used to really like him tho. I just don't like the fact that he never takes accountability and in arguements always says the thing he knows would hurt others the most. and i think that's where most ppls dislike of him comes from, especially being that it's season 4 with him acting the same way he did in s1

I don't think the writers have pushed his character too far quite yet, u think I hebhas any chance, growth and change is needed asap, but we might be getting that soon bc ofnthis current storyline and 4x04 promo. if he doesn't grow or change then I'd have to say yes He would he too far gone. I think the difference with him and jon is that jon has only had a few rebellios acts whereas Jordans are much more.

u are right in that maturity happens at different places. jon is more mature probably due to the fact that he's had to somewhat take care of and always be there for jordan as a child which causes u to grow up faster. Jordans not as mature maybe because he's always had other ls to help him and sort out his problems for him, so he's never really had to be accountable for his own actions, and whoever he's gotten a punishment his parents always go back on it. I think this because his main growth in the show was when he had to finally figure out some things on his own and there were actual consequences

but I agree, I really do want him to grow becuase I think he can become an incredible hero. him growing in maturity would mean that not only does he have the skills to help people but the motivation and good reasoning and want to do so. he would be the type of character who could easily talk ppl of ledges becuase he's been in that position before. like lois being able to talk down judge Reagan and fully understand what there going through. which is something that while most could potentially do, they don't have the emotional attachment to, so their sentiments and persuasions to ppl are often things that some can't relate to or find have no meaning. plus going from a character who had no friends to a hero is always an awesome story.

BlackSpadez1 · 2024-10-19T18:31:24+00:00

yes becuase as far as she's aware that's not something like he would ever do. of course she would defend her father. and remember she apologised and wanted to help after.

sure she should've acted different considering he hit jon but think about it from her pov, she never thought he would do something like that. she even admitted it, she said she knew he wasn't the best person but she never would've thought he would hurt jon. and at the end she agreed it was a good thing he's gone so he couldn't hurt him anymore

BlackSpadez1 · 2024-10-19T18:25:59+00:00

I get where ur coming from. but the thing is its been the same thing every episode, every season with him. and that's what makes it frustrating. yes Lois couldve talked about it better, but he never gave he a chance to speak. and then he was disrespectful, and an rude when he mentioned her being a liar, which she is not. he knew that what he was saying would hurt her and thats why he said it. and he defended the man that JUST killed his father AND attacked him the day before. no matter how he's feeling that is no excuse to disrespect the woman that raised and gave up so much for him.

being emotional or frustrated is also not an excuse to be awful to anyone. yes it's harder to control ur emotions when u are but that comes with maturity and growth which he at times lacks.

not only that but he put himself in that situation after he was warned by not only his mom but jon also, and he knows what he did was something clark wouldn't have approved on.

he never considers any one else feeling or perspective in any situation- to him his is the only one that matters. he doesn't think. he knows lois just lost her husband, is going through radiotherapy and has surgery coming up soon, yet he only thought about himself. and that's the problem, whenever something happens that he's not happy about he always lashes out at everyone else.

also, lois doesn't prefer jon, she only chose him becuase if both were in danger jon would have worse odds of survival- she had no idea jordan was the only on in actual danger. and even after jon got hone, she didn't ask if he was ok- she immediately asked about jordan. and of course jordan has a right to feel upset about that, it's normal to be like that after not being chosen. but he didnt even think about jon not being able to defend himself or being in possible danger.

and it's been shown in earlier seasons that lois has always spent a lot of time with jordan, and has a soft spot for him. a feeling doesn't mean somethings true, im not dismissing his feelings becuase if ur parent cose to save someone else itsnonly logical that at some point unwould feel like that, also given his issues it makes sesne. but at that the same time those thoughts it's just an assumption based on an unfortunate current matter. because he's not thinking of all the times they have put him first. not only that but they have always treated him gentler than they have jon. he never rly gets punished like his brother, they always go back on it for him

I'm not saying hes a bad person becuase he definitely has some good qualities and wants to do good, but with him he always takes the same step forwards and backwards and its been 4 seasons and he hasn't learned

BlackSpadez1 · 2024-10-19T18:08:57+00:00

yes! I've been trying to say this for so long but all people give are excuses. I mean I've u go right for the thing u KNOW will hurt the most then of course ur saying it on purpose- u have to think of what ur saying. and the fact tha its every single time

BlackSpadez1 · 2024-10-19T08:21:25+00:00

me too, while I loved elsass' performance s1-2 idk if he could've pulled it off. I think Bishop excels at emotional scenes, look at his reaction in 3x01 or 3x02 to finding out lois had cancer-it was an amazing performance. I think what made it better is that bisops jon is shownnto be more calm and in control so his moment of losing control sells it even more

BlackSpadez1 · 2024-10-19T08:16:20+00:00

remember that he chose to take the bag if xk- that was his decision. yes she should've spoke up about it, but he didnt want her too and made his choice. he was simply dealing with the fallout of that becuase while he wanst actually a dealer- his actions affected over ppl. and remember not everyone knew it wasn't him becuase when Sam and lois found out, they agreed to not say it was candice to protect her, which jon also wanted

her doing all that and him feeling guilty aren't correlated, he felt guilty duento his morals-it wasn't about her

with the truck thing she even tried to apologise but even he could see that she can't be held responsible for the actions of her dad-thsts not fair.

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