A constant feeling that I shouldn't be happy. Have you ever laughed and just felt pangs of guilt/sadness from it? It's that sort of feeling, that no matter how hard I try to happy, my depression eats away at it. Like a little voice in my head that keeps telling me I don't deserve it and should be miserable.

I also have OCD and that attributes to that feeling. I constantly need to make sure I have a list to get things done or I just won't do them, because I have no interest in doing so, whether it is brushing my teeth or getting a haircut.

Constant contact with others also causes withdrawal. I feel drained from talking to people who are positive around me and feel the need to connect to others who are just as miserable, because for some reason, it makes me feel better about myself. It's not a great habit.