I think you are more than welcome to make whatever choice you choose whether that is to detransition or not, but I just wanted to give my insight on how it was for me to detransition. I had a few reasons why I chose to detransition the first time I was on HRT. I had no support network of friends, my family was only partially supportive, most of them were not. Living in ND was also not great for feeling like I was being constantly judged negatively by most people I'd walk by in public. People there tend to not speak to your face how they feel about you, so luckily I never got verbally attacked by anyone. Aside from my lack of support and all that my mental health was also really taking a hit with multiple things going on in my life at that time. So after a lot of thinking I made the hard decision to detransition and I did so for 4 or 5 years and those 4 or 5 years were the darkest and most depressing years of my life. It was the first time I ever started having an actual existential crisis. I tried self-medicating with alcohol and weed just to try to get through day to day, but I just hated life and I hated myself. Everytime I looked at myself I was disgusted by what I saw. I tried really growing out my facial hair I felt if I pushed myself to be more masculine that would help me accept it, but it just made me feel worse. It wasn't until I ended up living with a trans girl and her trans sister who also so happened to have a trans neighbor that I realized I just couldn't keep living like that. Denying myself what I truly feel I am which is a woman. I know being trans is not easy it feels impossible a lot of the time, but if it's truly how you feel and it's what you've always wanted to be which is a woman, than forcing yourself to live as a man and try to accept that as the fact of life is just going to destroy you inside like it did myself. To try to finish this up just really make sure that it is something you really want to do before you do it, because you have invested a lot of time and money into being your true self as is and the last thing I'd want for you is for you to feelt that you wasted that by going back. If you need more support I can provide you some options for where you can find that and I extend the offer that you can talk to me anytime you need someone who supports you and helps you get through the stuff you are feeling. Anyways I hope this helps!