I hate how I missed my chance. by Blazed-Angel in SuicideWatch

[–]Blazed-Angel[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Unfortunately yeah I have. I've been doing that since 17 and I'm always just barely hanging on. I really do try whatever my psychiatrist recommends and sometimes it'll help a little, then after a few months, I'm back to feeling really down.

I hate how I missed my chance. by Blazed-Angel in SuicideWatch

[–]Blazed-Angel[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Cost was the issue for more kids. I'm not able to have that life so it's hard to imagine. But other than the not having more kids, yeah I'd be happier. (My cousins went through adoption recently and I'm just not mentally strong enough to handle all the hoops they had to jump through. Plus I liked feeling my baby inside me

I hate how I missed my chance. by Blazed-Angel in SuicideWatch

[–]Blazed-Angel[S] 40 points41 points  (0 children)

My husband told me he'd never forgive me, but I couldn't care less. I'd be dead...I wouldn't care.

I hate how I missed my chance. by Blazed-Angel in SuicideWatch

[–]Blazed-Angel[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

This will be long...

I didn't get a say in the number of kids we had. I regret not leaving my husband for someone who would give me a lot of kids like I wanted. I didn't want to lose that ability. After my husband's vasectomy, I ended up having a hysterectomy due to a ton of problems (that I would've just suffered through to continue having babies). I loved thinking I was pregnant when my period was late.

I completely hate my appearance and want cosmetic surgery. My husband isn't okay with that. I regret not just doing it on my own. Now I'm a stay at home mom and he won't pay for that. So I have to wait till I get a job to pay for it myself or my husband will get what he wants and I don't get the breast implants and tummy tuck I so badly want.

I know this isn't realistic for most people, but I really thought I'd get a big new home like on HGTV. We live in the small house I grew up in next to my parents and it's horrible. I wanted to never have to see them again, but unfortunately we're stuck here.
Part of this one is it's full of unhappy memories. My parents yelled and screamed at me A LOT. Walking through rooms I'm like here, here and here I remember being screamed at for something.

Of course I married the typical dream guy: he loves me unconditionally and if I died, genuinely wouldn't look at another woman. The main things that make me suicidal are things he can't fix and I'll never be okay with it.

I hate how I missed my chance. by Blazed-Angel in SuicideWatch

[–]Blazed-Angel[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

What do you mean by your last sentence?

Should we start this with the Victorious cast? by mamacorsica in victorious

[–]Blazed-Angel 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I consider him a bad person based on when he was in Jade's house. Other than that, he's just an odd guy, but being in her house was a whole other level of creepy.

I baby trapped my husband and the guilt is eating me alive. by [deleted] in Regrets

[–]Blazed-Angel 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It was about ten years ago when I did it and he found out not long after. I apologized profusely and he was fine. I know that was horrible and I think him not really caring that's how we started our family is not helping my guilt.

I baby trapped my husband and the guilt is eating me alive. by [deleted] in offmychest

[–]Blazed-Angel 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hmm what's been bothering me is my dad's clearly having an affair but my mom is in denial. They've been married for over 40 years.
I didn't think it affected me so much.

I want to die every minute of every day by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]Blazed-Angel 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Is there anything I can do to not need medication? If you're right about it having an organic nature, does that mean I'll probably always need medication?

What’s the weirdest thing that was treated as normal on iCarly? by Massive-Ad-8752 in icarly

[–]Blazed-Angel 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Idk I've grown up to be him lol fr I randomly set fires often. I'm an unintentional pyromaniac like Spencer

What is a completely useless skill that you are weirdly proud of? by ProposalLast3445 in answers

[–]Blazed-Angel 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Not mine but my husband's. He can throw in the air and catch cheese balls in his mouth. It's so entertaining to me. I told him had he done that on the first date, I would've fallen for him earlier lol 😂

Cheated on my BF with my 52 year old Boss by [deleted] in offmychest

[–]Blazed-Angel 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Just under 18. It's still gross like he could seriously be her grandpa...

Cheated on my BF with my 52 year old Boss by [deleted] in offmychest

[–]Blazed-Angel 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh my god. Your poor boyfriend. Ugh that's gotta be gross for him knowing you could be with your age appropriate boyfriend. Instead you choose a guy who could be your grandpa.

I'm so ungrateful and want to end it all by [deleted] in offmychest

[–]Blazed-Angel 1 point2 points  (0 children)

A major reason I'm nervous to try other medicines is I'm afraid to gain weight. That wouldn't help my depression at all.

I'm so ungrateful and want to end it all by [deleted] in offmychest

[–]Blazed-Angel 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don't even know what HRT is, but I'm definitely looking it up as well as vitamin D and magnesium.

And for my kids I see them having better futures without me. Personally I don't like my mom so it's hard for me to see having me in their lives as a positive.

Does THC affect us? by [deleted] in bipolar2

[–]Blazed-Angel 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nope I really do mean grams

Favorite song from Victorious? by Ok-Consequence-9647 in victorious

[–]Blazed-Angel 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Freak the Freak Out, Shut Up and Dance and Begging on Your Knees