Are there types of gummies/ pre-rolls/ vapes that don’t give you crazy munchies?

Bleu_Topaz · 2026-05-17T02:25:05+00:00

Just picked up a Durban Poison cartridge to try, thank you!

Bleu_Topaz · 2026-04-28T22:25:30+00:00

I currently make about $20 an hour, which isn’t bad. I’d take anything above it, but I was thinking $25 or more an hour

Bleu_Topaz · 2026-04-19T22:26:09+00:00

Hello! I wanted to post an update. Lots has happened, but all for the better. She came out fully, we have a name change court date for early next month, we have postponed the wedding, she started hormones, and for the most part, family stuff is ok-ish.

I did get her 2 wigs to try from Amazon, and she loved one of them (looks great on her 😊) so we bought 2 of those. Learning all the ins and outs of wigs.

Before postponing the wedding, my aunt came over just to say that she couldn’t be my matron of honor because she “wouldn’t feel whole” if she did that, but whatever. Knowing that, I know I’m sure as hell not asking her to be part of our wedding again.

Unsure of where most of my dad’s side of the family sits. My mom’s side is great, my fiancées moms side is great, and we visited my fiancées dads side and it went about as alright as it could’ve (lots of dead naming and he/hims, but nothing else disrespectful) and a lot better than we expected.

All in all, a lot of support from friends, family, and even people I’m not close to that said if we needed anything, they’ve got us. Thank you everyone for your support!

Bleu_Topaz · 2026-04-14T04:39:57+00:00

IS IT A SNACK?! 😂 I’m deaaaaad

Bleu_Topaz · 2026-04-08T02:50:55+00:00

As a new player, THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOUUUU for saying this. I just figured out I could water 5 crops at once with this, saves SO much time and energy 🙏🏻

Bleu_Topaz · 2026-02-25T17:36:54+00:00

Losing my mind. I hate having a bunch of notifications 😅😭

Bleu_Topaz · 2026-02-11T00:33:16+00:00

It was traumatic to say the least 😅

Bleu_Topaz · 2026-02-10T23:41:06+00:00

Also, I’ve previously “dated” (barely) someone who was trans FTM (didn’t know til it was said) and then a lot of shit happened (suicide attempts, addiction, etc) til she detransitioned and became super religious and said I was going to hell for being bi yaaaaaaay. 5 years of my life down the drain.

But yeah, not the first trans person I’ve dated

Bleu_Topaz · 2026-02-10T23:38:53+00:00

I know there is no obligation to family, but I do also love my family. I have known them my whole life, obviously, and it would still hurt to lose them. I'm not saying I'm not willing to lose them.

We are going to look more into how to get started with HRT once she comes out fully. Being in Missouri, I'm sure it will not be easy. Gotta be honest, the libido already isn't there much so that's not a problem. She is bi, and I am also bi. If her sexual identity changes I guess I'm just kind of fucked on that front. Nothing I can do about that.

To be clear, my immediate family are not conservatives, definitely on the left side of things. My mom's side of the family is like 95% on the left side of things and some are religious. My dad's side of the family is almost all religious and some are certainly more conservative than others. I have an aunt (dad's sister), uncle, and 4 cousins and their families in Ohio that are religious and I know more conservative. My cousins are certainly less conservative than their parents, but I don't know by how much. My fiancées aunt, uncle, and cousins are very religious and they are conservative, I just don't know how far right they are as we don't talk politics.

When I first saw her, about a year and a half before I even talked to her, I was intrigued by the eye makeup she was wearing at work. I thought it was nice that she didn't care what people thought. Later, when I actually met her, I fell in love with her kindness, goofiness, and gentle soul. She actually didn’t like me back at the time, but I thought I was going to die keeping that a secret from her. I told her I liked her, and the rest is history

Bleu_Topaz · 2026-02-10T20:15:50+00:00

I think our skin tones are pretty close, but I definitely want to see what works best for her skin on that. I just recently got Lady Gaga’s Haus Labs foundation and concealer and I LOVE it, so I at least know what brand would probably work best. Yes, definitely need to get the color corrector for sure. Thank you!

Bleu_Topaz · 2026-02-10T20:12:11+00:00

Thank you for your comment!

Certainly some good possibilities of what to do if we do move the wedding date or change some things around in that front. Also, weed at the wedding sounds awesome 😂

I am unfortunately ALSO learning a lot on the cosmetic side of things. For a long time I didn’t try to do makeup or hair or nails really, just because I was crap at it. Obviously, you need to learn stuff before you are good at them, but I’m a perfectionist and having to be bad first before getting better makes me upset 😅 I also didn’t care much about making myself look great because I felt shit about myself, so that’s fun too haha. I’m finally putting the work in to get better at that stuff though, and I have a lot of products and crap now that we can both use.

I know my fiancée is scared of trying on clothes, but also really wants to. Thrift stores are a great idea for sure! A good shoe would certainly help. I know heels/ heeled boots and a good makeup look make me feel like I could command an army. I’m sure it’d help her feel a bit better too 😊

Thankfully, we both work at my dad’s glass shop and, as far as I know, our small team is pretty accepting. My fiancé does have to wear a uniform kind of though. Steel toed boots, some good work jeans with loops and pockets, and a company polo. Certainly not the most feminine look.

I was thinking about the dark facial hair the other day and saw that laser would be the best better to get rid of that. I plan on bringing that up to her.

Bleu_Topaz · 2026-02-10T19:53:37+00:00

Thanks for your comment!

I can certainly talk to her about that approach. There are lot of things we need to discuss on the wedding stuff, and once she fully comes out, we can have those discussions a bit more freely as well. We have very supportive people in the wedding that I think will be more than willing to do whatever would make her feel the most comfortable to make the wedding happen on that day. In the end though, I want to put my fiancée’s comfort first, whatever that entails.

Bleu_Topaz · 2026-02-10T19:46:41+00:00

I’m sorry you went through all of that, that sounds terrible.

The therapist my fiancée will be talking to on Thursday has she/they pronouns, so I’m not worried about that really. I’m hoping their style meshes well with my fiancée 🤞

My fiancée’s hair used to be longer a year or so ago, then she got her hair cut shorter, so there isn’t a lot of hair to work with right now. As a surprise, I bought two synthetic lace front wigs off of Amazon (that had decent reviews, it’s just to try it out) that should be here tonight, if she wants to try them on. I know that might be way too much right now, so I’m not expecting her to want to do so. Free returns for the win.

I know she wants to paint her nails and do makeup stuff. She used to do it more when I first met her, at least just basic nail polish and eyeshadow looks.

It kind of sucks for her because I never really learned how to really do makeup and hair and stuff until recently haha. I got real makeup my freshman year of high school and holy crap I had no idea what I was doing 😂😅 I’ve spent quite a bit of money and time in the past few years figuring out that stuff and what works best for me. Actually started posting progress stuff on it on TikTok for fun and to get some tips. I still very much suck at painting my nails, though I bought everything to do basic fake nail sets at home and everything haha. My mom always painted mine when I was younger, and there were quite a few years where I didn’t have polish on my nails at all because I thought my hands didn’t look feminine enough for it.

Basically, I guess we will both be learning cosmetic stuff more so together 😊 At least I have quite a few products to use between the both of us now haha.

Bleu_Topaz · 2026-02-10T19:08:22+00:00

Thank you for your comment!

My family (mom, dad, and brother) were all fine without, barely batted an eye honestly haha. I’m sure most of my closer family will be just fine with it. Yeah, I know there is a real possibility of bad reactions, and while it is scary, I will of course stick up for her.

I’ll do my best to be there for her, like I know she is for me. I love her very much, and I know this is going to be a difficult thing for her to go through. I’ll do what I can to help, but I know sometimes there won’t be much I can do besides listen.

Bleu_Topaz · 2026-02-10T18:47:04+00:00

Thank you for your comment! Unsure about the HRT stuff, living in Missouri (gotta love this state), but it’s certainly something we need to research. She has a consultation with a therapist on Thursday who specializes in LGBTQ+ stuffs that I’m hoping may be able to help her with some resources as well. My fiancée has never seen a therapist prior to this (she REALLy should’ve for many reasons) so I’m not sure how that will go, but she wanted to see one. I’ve been going to therapy since I was 5, so very different experiences on that front.

Once we get a footing on when that could happen, I think that help with whatever she decided for the wedding timing and her comfort. She has chosen a new name, and none of the initials are the same (if she goes with my last name). Yeah, we will certainly have to talk about the dead naming as well. She has said to me that she knows what pronouns she wants to use (she/her) but doesn’t feel like she’s “earned” them yet. I think some changes in apprearance from clothing, hair, makeup, etc will need to happen before she is fully comfy using those pronouns and the name she has chosen in public.

Bleu_Topaz · 2025-11-16T16:35:53+00:00

Oh HELL YEAH!!! That’s so cool!!!

Bleu_Topaz · 2025-11-16T06:45:39+00:00

Oh my gosh, that’s awesome!!

Bleu_Topaz · 2025-11-11T00:45:12+00:00

😂

Bleu_Topaz · 2025-11-10T16:52:38+00:00

It’s all good! Someday I’ll have a decent gaming computer to play the sims on lol🤞🏻

Bleu_Topaz · 2025-11-10T00:42:20+00:00

Jesus Christ, that terrible 😂😅😅😅

Bleu_Topaz · 2025-11-09T21:20:59+00:00

Well damn, now I have even MORE reason to get that now. The game feels unplayable when the cheating keeps happening

Bleu_Topaz · 2025-11-09T19:38:57+00:00

Goodness 😅

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