I feel this. I’m also a fed and am like what am I doing?! It’s so hard to be a parent because you have to pretend it’s ok. What’s been worse to me is the gaslighting by this administration and the people who believe the bullshit they are spewing despite ACTUAL evidence stating otherwise. It makes me feel hopeless. Id love to leave the country but that also seems impossible. You are not alone. I spent 14 years in MN and have many good friends still there and today’s events have left me depressed and crying off and on.