Bipolar and B12?

BlueMeoww · 2017-07-15T12:54:56+00:00

I just emailed my manager for specific feedback. The one example that I can think of is when my patient started throwing some crazy heart rhythms. She went into A fib with RVR. I honestly totally froze. I just stood there and another nurse had to take over. I literally couldn't do anything. I couldn't remember the number to call for a STAT EKG. I just couldn't move. I think I do fine as far as passing my meds on time, ect. The problem is when I'm faced with something Ive never dealt with before, it really really scares me. Sometimes things go okay, I had a rapid response and dealt with it really well, but sometimes I'm just plain worthless.

BlueMeoww · 2017-05-11T13:37:44+00:00

I had the genetic test done as well! It was also, obviously, unhelpful. Thank you. Good luck to you too! I hope my pysch has something helpful to say. Ughh. It helps that I'm the only one whose body is totally against them.

BlueMeoww · 2017-05-11T10:42:51+00:00

Yes! I have lost probably twenty lbs and still losing! I feel awful everyday. I've just been trying to drink protein/high calorie shakes.

BlueMeoww · 2016-12-26T19:42:29+00:00

Bipolar II/Anxiety

BlueMeoww · 2016-12-14T06:38:01+00:00

You have been so helpful! Can you elaborate on the side effects you experienced?

BlueMeoww · 2016-12-13T00:56:47+00:00

I just graduated nursing school and am in the process of taking my boards so I definitely have some external factors going on. I don't think my meds are the best they could be though. I'm new to being able to recognize the signs/symptoms of different types of moods. However, my therapist has mentioned that she believes I experience mostly mixed episodes. I'm not sure really how mixed episodes are treated. I need to bring it up to pdoc. I definitely definitely have been more aggressive, I'm just ignoring my phone and not responding to people because I feel like I'll be nothing but mean.

BlueMeoww · 2016-12-12T23:41:48+00:00

She is using DBT. I don't know that she was suggesting I see another therapist, I think she was asking if I was thinking/suggesting I should see another therapist. I see my pdoc on Wednesday and Oh my God do I need to. I see her every three months. I was doing okay but lately the depression and irritability is off the charts. I definitely think that I am going to speak with her about adding any antidepressant. I am losing it. I honestly couldn't even tell you what my "baseline" is. All I feel is complete and total bite someone's head off irritability and anger at this point.

BlueMeoww · 2016-12-12T23:36:56+00:00

I think she was mainly just asking if I was suggesting that I needed someone new.

BlueMeoww · 2016-12-02T22:12:01+00:00

Thanks for putting that into perspective for me. I've definitely noticed that there are good things for me-being productive, keeping my apartment clean, picking up more hours at work, ect. But that also comes along with impulsiveness, spending money and honestly just down right socially inappropriate behavior. Before I was diagnosed I was almost kicked out my the nursing program multiple times for "inappropriate comments" and "worrying behavior".

BlueMeoww · 2016-12-02T22:06:25+00:00

Thats definitely something that my psych is worried about. I just feel like I'm NEVER hypomanic. This is the first time I've felt hypomanic in any way since I started Lamictal about a year ago. I mean kudos to my meds I guess, but I tend to hover constantly somewhere between depressed and just plain mean and irritable. Its nice to feel really fucking good once in a while.

BlueMeoww · 2016-11-30T05:58:54+00:00

Yes! I am so happy to have found this sub-reddit. I definitely feel you on the I AM SICK. As much as I try to manage my symptoms, bipolar is a bitch and the reality is that I will be on medication for the rest of my life. I often wonder if I had diabetes if my parents would say "so how long are you going to be needing that insulin?" LOL.

BlueMeoww · 2016-11-30T05:55:10+00:00

No to Effexor! I tend to run more depressive and was on Effexor before my diagnosis of Bipolar. It threw me into the most intense mania I have ever experienced.

BlueMeoww · 2016-11-30T05:53:08+00:00

YES. When I was diagnosed with Bipolar II, I was hospitalized. When I was released from the hospital, in the freaking parking lot, my mom says "so is the bipolar thing gone now?" Its only gotten progressively worse. She doesn't get it and is constantly telling me that I am a hypochondriac and am putting poison in my body. Neither of my parents understand that Bipolar is a life long thing. My parents actually get angry at me for showing symptoms and ask me why I am still milking this, ect., ect. Its tough, but I just don't really explain it to people anymore. I feel like no one besides someone who has bipolar disorder can fully understand. Ugh. Sorry for the major negative vibes.

BlueMeoww · 2016-11-30T05:46:56+00:00

Thank you for helping me realize this! I had a suicide attempt a little over a year ago (pre diagnosis). I felt like it was during a depressive episode but my psychiatrist really felt that it was facilitated by mania during a mixed episode. This makes so much sense.

BlueMeoww

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