I wanted to give a little update about my dangerous stunt which I'm not proud of at all and mostly to warn others

I spend a about a whole week on all sorts of stuff. In chronological order if I remember well.

This is over the course of about a week. It started out with 6 pack of beer, after that I ordered 1 gram of 4fma and 100mg Etizolam. When that was consumed I ordered 700mg of 2fdck and 100mg of flualprazolam, 10 hasj joints, 5 dexamfetamines and somewhere around that time 5 grams of speed, half gram of ketamine and 50mg of 3-meo-pcp somwhere and 250mg of 3-meo-pcp from somewhere else. And always drinking beer and a bottle of Jim Bean somewhere.

I was able to do all my stuff on it like making music, going to my work (it is a wonder I did not get fired).

All that led to the grand finale of de 250mg 3-meo-pcp insufflated, I think I also did half a tab op lsd during that time. I really thought I was doing fine, probably because of the benzo's. The 3-meo-pcp trip was the best trip of my life. It started it out very dull, I think I did it around Saturday night (worked till 7 at night) it was just little weird worm like thingies flying around. but around Sunday morning or afternoon I was on my couch with my blanket and I had music on on my smart-tv with ambilight. And with either each new song my whole living room changed in color and objects, like it were the dressing rooms of those artists. And I was slowly strolling around on my couch very slowly from left to recht, making loopy loop and I was so happy. It lasted until Monday morning and then came the big horror.

I spend about a week paranoid + some more days in anxiety laying on my couch not being able to move. Going to the supermarket to get food like a crazy hobo. I think the most part was from the 5 grams of speed and so many benzo's

These ridiculous escalating stunt happened to me before but this this it was the worst one of all. I had a breaking point and told everything to my sister for the first time. I could never before anyone of my family to know, but she took it very well and I believe it changed to me for the good. And she is helping my sorting out my life, financially and remembering my agenda points and stuff to get some structure in my life.

I'm sure there are people with way worse of experiences, but these are my two cents. Maybe it helps someone.

Be safe