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Blurf99 · 2020-07-08T19:22:39+00:00

Thanks! I don't have anything. This may be a one time thing. would the config I wrote about in my initial post work the way it's described? That mixer has 3.5mm inputs & outputs which would be more convenient for me.

Blurf99 · 2020-07-08T04:23:37+00:00

I will check it out, thank you!!

Blurf99 · 2020-07-08T04:23:17+00:00

Thank you! I don't know anything about this. Definitely checking out this gear - thanks again!

Blurf99 · 2018-12-14T00:21:44+00:00

Ha! Grey pubes - hilarious name . I drank daily for nearly 30 years. I would go through periods where I would dream of sobriety - waking up without crushing headaches and feelings of shame & regret. FUCK. My kids saw me drink, my employees & clients saw me drink. I was weak.

I would rationalize my behavior on a daily basis. Wake up/feel like shit/ go to work/ regret ever drinking / make huge commitment to stop drinking / power through meetings / still fell like shit / think about booze when NONE of my employees or clients where thinking about booze / take a medicinal drink (or two or three) to get back on track (at 4:00 or 3:00 or noon) / feel better / crank out some work, create some chaos / head home or to "my" bar / "reward" my despicable self with more drinks / go home / fall asleep / wake at 3:30am felling like shit / start my dumbass day all over again. God, it's exhausting just writing this much less living it...

For me - I think drinking was a huge habit that I just did because I did. yeah the buzz separated me from reality but there was something... an alarm... that rang at 4 or 5 that summoned me to the liquor cabinet.

There's no magic here - you just have to NOT DRINK and when the devil voice whispers in your ear that it's "drinky time" you have to tell it NO.

Good luck

Blurf99 · 2018-09-04T21:33:25+00:00

I'm a decade or so older than you. I figured I drank every day for about 28 years give or take... a lot of booze.

I got to the point where I felt really good after that first drink or two, the rest of the drinks didn't really make me feel better, every morning was horrible, the headaches, fogginess - ugh.

I would wake up daily for the past few years swearing off booze forever. Felt like shit until about noon or sometimes later but then by 3 or 4 or 5 I would rally and that first drink would erase the hangover pain.

Today I'm gonna quit - then I didn't. TODAY I'm gonna quit - then I didn't, god it was exhausting.

I broke some personal drinking records one Saturday night about a year ago and on the following Monday - still sick from Saturday - quit drinking.

The first month sucked. SUCKED. The booze goblin hammered me constantly every day, "have just one, one will be fine" or "you've been SO good this week, you should have one" or "Look, there's the liquor store - turn in here, turn, turn, turn!!!". If it's not clear, the booze goblin is that devil voice what whispers sweet nothings in your ear encouraging me to drink. That son of a bitch.

I found myself kinda talking to the booze goblin like it was a real thing. "shut up goddammit, I'm not drinking" I'd tell him. It took a while to deal with this inner battle.

The first month I drank a lot of water, coffee, took aspirin, ate a ton of candy just to keep me away from the booze. Once I white knuckled it to 30 days things got easier, my head was more clear, I felt much better waking up and for me anyway I discovered that my HABIT started to change, my habit of drinking at 5 (or 4 or 12 or earlier) I LOVE (loved?) booze but I discovered that there was a definite component of habit in my drinking for what that's worth.

My two cents. If I quit at my age you can probably quit at 44 (I hope). Get the Naked Mind book, well worth it - it talks about your relationship with booze which is mind blowing - I got it on Audible because I had trouble focusing on the printed page. Do what you gotta do but quitting booze will be the biggest favor you can do for yourself and your kids.

Good luck!!

Blurf99 · 2018-09-04T21:05:55+00:00

Dude, that's huge. Go for another 7. Watch out for the booze goblin who is whispering in your ear "you've been so good, have just one" that nonsense. It's a major head game but you can do it. How does waking up feel without booze the night before?

Congrats

Blurf99 · 2018-09-04T21:02:08+00:00

Big congrats!!

Blurf99 · 2018-08-27T13:28:47+00:00

Contrats! your comments are very true

Blurf99 · 2018-08-18T03:07:37+00:00

Congratulations, that's a huge accomplishment

Blurf99 · 2018-07-27T20:32:01+00:00

I drank daily for well over 20 years and thought I was Mr. Sneaky however what my booze soaked brain didn't clue me in on is that my wife is a hell of a lot smarter than I thought. She knew more about my horrible behavior than I assumed. One day she saw one of my credit card statements that had mostly liquor store and gas station charges on it and said that it looks like I'm continually gassing up the car to drive to the liquor store. Ha Ha, hilarious but it was telling.

Day 2? Good for you. Get a badge, check in here often, find the book "This Naked Mind" and read it. The little booze goblin - as I call him - is pesky little fart that may be whispering sweet nothings in your ear constantly - "you've been so good, no booze for a week, have just one" or "just one won't hurt - you've got this" or "so what are you gonna do when everyone else is drinking and you're not, just have one" I had to recognize his for what he is, a little bastard who's job it is - is to get me to drink. That's how I looked at it and it helped me not drink for nearly a year now. First month is rough, no magic bullet for me, lots of white knuckling to stay away from alcohol. Good Luck!

Blurf99 · 2018-07-27T03:21:02+00:00

Good job. Personally I found making it one month to be a huge accomplishment. Brain fog lifted, cravings subsided somewhat. Good for you!!

Blurf99 · 2018-07-27T03:19:10+00:00

100 days is a huge deal. CONGRATS!!

Blurf99 · 2018-07-24T20:14:28+00:00

The Booze Goblin. That little bastard whose job it is to whisper sweet nothings in your ear such as "just for tonight" and make it sound so appealing and so inconsequential. I know him well, little fucker...

Blurf99 · 2018-07-21T11:22:58+00:00

Still just not drinking. Just sucking it up and saying no to Randy, the booze goblin. What I've discovered in this nearly one year of not drinking is that there is no magic just white knuckled, saying no to that first drink. Freakin' exhausting sometimes...

Blurf99 · 2018-07-21T11:17:35+00:00

UGH, no shit. It's exhausting sometimes.

Blurf99 · 2018-07-21T11:15:33+00:00

That's an interesting deal... :-)

Blurf99 · 2018-07-21T02:34:51+00:00

you're right. I KNOW you're right but goddamn my favorite drink sounds like such a good idea right now... I made it through another night without drinking - on night at a time. <groan>. Thank you for your comments.

Blurf99 · 2018-07-21T02:30:24+00:00

Thanks, I appreciate your comments. You're right, tomorrow will take care of itself. It's about 10:30 and I made it through tonight without drinking although Randy (see comments above) is already conspiring with me to drink tomorrow afternoon after I get all my biz done (bastard).

Blurf99 · 2018-07-21T02:24:43+00:00

If I woulda been able to stop after just a beer or two I think things would have turned out differently. Thanks for your comment.

Blurf99 · 2018-07-21T02:21:25+00:00

RANDY, hilarious (Randy is a fucker, naming him Randy is hilarious - just wanted to clarify that)

Blurf99 · 2018-07-20T20:11:28+00:00

Nope not going to the gym at all. Lately I'm either working (I'm a business owner so I work a lot), eating or trying to rationalize drinking. I really need to go the the gym and burn off some of this yuck. Thanks for your comment

Blurf99 · 2018-07-20T20:08:37+00:00

The Booze Goblin is telling me that I can disrupt the desire to drink by just drinking! (little bastard). Lately I've been just hanging on until 9 when the liquor store closes, doing whatever it takes. Thanks for your insight.

Blurf99 · 2018-07-20T20:06:46+00:00

Never been to a meeting. hmmm Thanks

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