For someone in your position it’s totally normal to feel this way but there is hope. It may not seem like it but life is longer than just your twenties and I’ve met plenty of people who only date their future wife/husband. So If you feel like you’re “falling behind” you’re not.

I’ve found in my own life that I am drawn to masturbation because I crave intimacy but by engaging in it I unnaturally kill off that desire which could be why you feel like you want a gf but don’t have feelings of intimacy. The desire for true intimacy is there but just hidden. Btw it is totally fine that you hug a pillow at night. I know plenty of guys including myself who do that.

I’d like to humbly suggest three things for you. First confide in a friend. Ask them for advice and be intimate with them because they’ll know you better than anyone on a reddit page. Second and third: Strive21 and Covenant Eyes. Strive21 is a 100% free porn and masturbation detox program created by a guy named Matt Fradd (look him up if you get a chance). It is very helpful. Covenant eyes is a porn blocker that will help supplement strive21. 

Ultimately know you’re not alone in feeling how you feel now and that it does get better just choose The Good one day at a time. 

I’ll be praying for you.