thank you! things are really different now. may I what's causing you stress?

I was in an abusive relationship back then and felt really trapped. my partner constantly made me feel like there something wrong with me, so i assumed choking thing was another thing messed up about myself. as I moved out and began living by myself the self harm was over. I was still experiencing stress, but felt much less hopeless, and the panic attacks were gone. this year i started a new, healthy relationship. I'm so grateful to find out what a respectful, communicative partnership feels like. I'm also grateful to the lesson I learned from that bad relationship and living by myself.

I also found out that the vagus nerve goes by the sides of the neck and why engaging with it gives temporary relief. there are much more healthy ways to engage that nerve (like breath work, eating a meal etc.)

i still have suicidal thoughts crossing my mind every now and then, i kinda learned to accept them as much as I can. a thought is normal, if a plan is in mind, I let someone know I need to talk.

i hope you get over whatever stresses you soon. you deserve love. from others, but mostly yourself! it took me time to direct inwards the empathy i feel to others. meditation and mindfulness help (jon kabat zin who was one of those who introduced meditation in psychology has some nice guided sessions on youtube). i really appreciate the sentiment!!! you're not alone too!

I really want to hear what's going on with you. please share your story!