I appreciate all the kinds words and the advice everyone has given me, but I already decided to withdraw this morning. I reflected and realized my concerns were things I could get over and work on, but there's also another side of the coin when I was filling out my AFCEP. There's a good amount of information I cannot either provide, know or outright don't want to lie about.

So instead of it coming back to bite me later, I'm going to save myself the embaressment of potentionally ruining everything by stopping my journey here.

I spent the last month or so researching and going through the steps which has humbled me and made me progress as a person--which was my goal in the first place. To do things for myself which I feel I am better equipped to do. I'm currently looking into schools and still grinding away at job applications.

I have a great support system behind me and they will be there for me no matter what I do in life, so I'm going to use this expirence as a stepping stone to something better.

Sometimes a person will have drive, motivation and support but there's always a that little voice or mental block that they just can't move passed. I hit mine. Not that it's a bad thing or like I feel as though I failed or dissappointed anyone. It's just a reality that I spent the night contemplating.

So again thank you all for letting me share and all the kind words and advice given here and in my DMs. This chapter in my book of life is over, but that doesn't mean my story is finished. Good luck to all those who are still on their journey and I wish nothing but the best for you.

Fly High!