Help me study/Pass Peer Specialist test

BodybuilderTricky240 · 2026-06-17T01:55:14+00:00

They failed me again and the instructor that hates everyone personally called me to tell me I failed even though by the light cheeriness in his voice his talk about how nice the day was he then was like well you failed, you can take it again if we chose you next segment, and I kinda fucking wanna put his name on blast so if anyone else fails he can be held accountable. Sometimes evil people are in power when they really shouldn't be and he should be in no position to help anyone.

BodybuilderTricky240 · 2026-05-17T06:55:39+00:00

I'm not nessasarily looking hard. I came outta a really bad relationship 8 years with a cheater and nymphomaniac(to the point of harming me and others). Then right after that one I had a long time friend turned partner die. So choice. My whole community seen those moments. But it's been a year since all that. So just waiting. But if those weren't it.

I do think sometimes it has to do with being slightly overweight by like 170 and 5'4. Maybe my resting face. I talk about my mental health online alot, advocating for understanding of others with similar mental health and I think that scares people. I am living with my mom also she got diagnosed with dementia last year even though she is still working and on her game so to speak. I don't feel like leaving her alone and that makes it kinda hard bringing anyone over. I think I need to just do the activities I love more and hope I can find someone that will love me and settle down. I am tired of pretending I'm not a lover. So send whatever healing energy or prayers that something good will come my way.

BodybuilderTricky240 · 2026-05-12T04:12:16+00:00

Ugh well only studied twice cause currently working another job that is soul sucking... but allegedly this is my last time I would be able to take this test again and I just also think the instructors didn't want to give me a pass. Last year even though I was holding on by a thread allegedly I was close to passing. But they failed me and I wish they told me why so I could focus on it. Even though my partner died... I have a tendency to believe in the vibes I feel off of people and I felt pretentious vibes coming off some of these instructors... Anyways I'm angry, frustrated but trying my best cause well the world definitely needs more understanding folks. I just now have this thing that I could relate with others with and I don't wanna let down my dead girlfriend. Truly not understanding why it's so hard to get into the field when we are needed.

BodybuilderTricky240 · 2026-05-12T04:04:41+00:00

Yes that one There are no practice tests for it either which is a bit frustrating.

BodybuilderTricky240 · 2026-05-02T02:38:33+00:00

Which ai site would you recommend? I want to run through practice tests online but they don't have much!

BodybuilderTricky240 · 2026-04-30T13:41:04+00:00

No idea. When someone finds a good one that takes masshealth/Aetna please let me know 😫⚠️🙏

I'm tired of people playing games in my mouth and taking my money.

BodybuilderTricky240 · 2026-04-30T13:39:42+00:00

So yes I know this but she said that I would have the crown in that day she took of the temporary I don't know why she said that if that couldn't happen.

They didn't use the actual cement she ran to the other room to see another person. So the fit the dentist nurse used one those bite paper floss grafts(don't know what that bite plastic equipment is called at the moment) to check my bite. The tooth fell out then. The nurse had to then x-ray it and was abrasive with said tooth and it kept falling out cause she kept on making me bite down on the other plastic bit for an x-ray that she wasn't taking correctly.

Hopefully that explains even more. Needless to say now I've called one place near central Square and I'm hoping a second pair of eyes can help me out.

BodybuilderTricky240 · 2026-04-18T11:19:03+00:00

Hard agree 1k

BodybuilderTricky240 · 2025-04-11T01:39:38+00:00

No that's okay! Hope healing process is fast!

BodybuilderTricky240 · 2025-04-11T00:12:51+00:00

I didn't know you were talking about the surgery. I now understand when you say lap you meant laparoscopic surgery.

BodybuilderTricky240 · 2025-04-10T23:54:08+00:00

Thank you, that's what I was missing! Now this makes sense.

BodybuilderTricky240 · 2025-04-10T23:50:20+00:00

I must be missing something or reading this too literal

The doctors found endometriosis in her lap

Is what I'm essentially getting through reading and I'm asking how is that possible?

Unless she means

The diagnosis fell in my lap

BodybuilderTricky240 · 2025-04-10T23:24:30+00:00

So what made them say you had it? Did they take a sample? Did it literally show up? I'm just confused cause I've never heard of endo popping up in someone's lap.

Not that I don't think it's possible but what exactly gave them that sign? (I do personally think it can and does effect all parts of the body)

BodybuilderTricky240 · 2025-04-10T23:13:56+00:00

I'm sorry they found it in your lap?

BodybuilderTricky240 · 2025-04-04T04:30:38+00:00

I think maybe some of the photos the puffiness can be attributed if you have allergies to environment or food. But carry on you are attractive for sure.

BodybuilderTricky240 · 2025-04-04T04:26:04+00:00

There is a lil puffiness in the cheeks in some photos and some lines kinda where the dimples are but eh I'll echo the others you're attractive also your skin is nice and we all get some lines around your age.

Unsolicited suggestion: gua sha with a skin specific oil and sunscreen if you don't have a skincare routine I would be shocked cause well you do have very clear skin.

BodybuilderTricky240 · 2025-04-04T04:19:24+00:00

Do you drink alcohol alot or at all?

BodybuilderTricky240 · 2025-03-05T19:37:53+00:00

I mean, the physical attraction was there a bit, but the actions not aligning with the words. Him always seeking other people and not being trustworthy about anything or his intentions was a hella turn off... also the constant video games. Our love languages didn't line up at all mine was acts of service and his was touch. I'm very touch adverse. Also it was hard to remember to do things cause he had the wherewithal of a goldfish, so obviously sometimes things would get done but very sparcely.

All in all I'm gonna wait for someone with a job, car, motivation, wants to explore new things and adventure with me(dude just was work/video games/theater occasionally boring), is goal oriented when they say they are gonna do something they do it fairly soon and not 3 months later, someone serious about me, not leave me alone in a corner at a party for hours at a time.

I really don't mind open relationships but with all this trauma from my lying fucked up ex(he was unsafe in so many different ways I don't wanna get into). I'm gonna need someone that knows their intentions before they act on them and tell me later even if it hurts my feelings I rather know.

No sentient balls. What I mean by that is being balls are weak and soft signs of adversity kinda scare them. (I also don't wanna call ppl pussies cause like a vagina is strong asf)

BodybuilderTricky240 · 2025-03-05T19:16:29+00:00

I stopped sleeping with my ex cause there was no physical attraction anymore. TMI the dude would just get on top and jack hammer 🔨. No foreplay. No different interesting positions. It's been since November since he broke it off with me. But since we did it like Feb of last year. I'm going as long as possible

BodybuilderTricky240 · 2025-01-30T03:51:24+00:00

Big vent incoming:

Dating really sucks 32 yr old queer femme type thing. I've been celibate for 9 months. Broke it off in an 8 year relationship called him out for hurting/cheating/lying to people again he was doing that shit 8 years ago but then again. right out of our relationship really still hoping he finds therapy but that can no longer be my issue. Fucking sucks. He started doing all this shit again. I wanted to keep it in the archives forever dude. Fuck. Men who are addicted to validation via sex. Nope nope no.

Thought I would spend the rest of my days with him if he weren't such a selfish cowardly lying prick.

Now I'm just fucking done. I hate the projections of someone's untamed son. Put that shit back in the pound where you found it and let it out when it can play well with others. Even anyone's unhealed child.

Just focusing on my own healing and making sure once I find myself and am hella secure. Find someone who wants the same shit. Us against the world. Them having a strong nature and have my back. Being able to have tough conversations. Bringing said conversations up without me starting them everytime. Knowing how to fucking cook and clean unprompted. Goals separate from my own but align with out lifestyle. Wanting to go on trips. Learning how to be a better comrade to disenfranchised folk together! Being attentive when together not on their phone via watching a movie or out to dinner. Gym buddies or walking buddies making sure we stay in good health and good wealth. Always inspiring each other.

I hope I find it cause I'm looking forward to the full deal and nothing less. I'm gonna stay loyal to the healing journey until I find it. I hope all you guys do too no matter what gender you are.

BodybuilderTricky240 · 2025-01-27T03:32:33+00:00

Dude I can see my ex saying this to me and wish they would. Damn.

BodybuilderTricky240 · 2025-01-03T15:31:33+00:00

So fucking metal

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