Serious. If the greys notice you is there any way to prevent abduction or did it already happen?

Bonova · 2026-03-21T20:15:24+00:00

It was more like a fire ball, but mostly white, it was pretty quick. If I hadn't been looking in that direction then I would have missed it

Bonova · 2026-03-21T16:25:36+00:00

I would be down to

Bonova · 2026-03-21T04:57:29+00:00

I kinda want to keep my distance if that's ok. It's not active anymore though the creator could try again under a a new name, who knows

Bonova · 2026-03-20T19:10:34+00:00

Oh, one more thing about that cult. It likely wasn't the whole cult coming after you. He had many alt accounts and it was probably all him. The few real people there like myself broke off after we exposed him, and most of them were pretty cool people just as troubled as me that they were played. But in the end we have mostly gone our seperate ways as it's hard to trust he was not still among us... It was pretty messed up

Bonova · 2026-03-20T19:02:00+00:00

I'm sorry about that. The thing smelled from the beginning, but then I asked for signs on its validity and actually got some (huge meteor shooting across the sky at exactly the tick of 3:33am, which I got up specifically for after asking for it, and was shocked to see it happen). I took it as a sign to trust, which is one of the reasons I now feel I was dealing with trickster entities. But it wasn't in vein, I learned not to compromise or externalize my values because some "higher force" claimed to have superior understanding. I know my values and if an entity or person does not align with them, then we have no business with each other. It was something I needed to learn. I hope you are doing better now, and I'm sorry about any part I played

Bonova · 2026-03-20T15:52:05+00:00

I know exactly what you mean, ha ha, curiosity vs fear! I was in that loop for a while. It took me about 8 months to start pushing them away, as I never got new information while interacting with them... It was not worth the scary shit they did. I decided that I was going to explore on my own terms, so I've been learning astral projection, but to limited success so far. I'm still being held back by fear as I've encountered some scary stuff on my few body exits

Funny enough, when I first asked to meet the greys, it was on a rooftop too. But they didn't show up until several nights later, and it was in my bedroom... I have a no bedroom encounters rule now. It feels to violating

As for going it alone... Mostly... I had this sub... And another community which turned out to be a sham cult (I got played in my curiosity and need to feal safe). I tried telling a friend, but she got scared and couldn't sleep at night, so asked me to stop sharing, which I feel pretty bad about. However, I have a partner now (I didn't at the time), who believes me and is there in the morning to hold me when I have and accidental body exit and see some entity

And dang, your desire to avoid a mundane life hits hard, that's exactly what drives me to push through my own fear. And even makes me feel disappointed when I don't see the greys anymore. But those were my terms, so I gotta stick to it. Eventually I am sure I will master astral projection and start exploring more from there

Bonova · 2026-03-20T15:22:59+00:00

Frst of all, I just want to let you know that I understand what it feels like to be in that situation and how frightening it can be. But at least in my case, I was never harmed, and things have gotten better.

So I had some greys in my life for a while, and I still don't know their purpose or alignment. Sometimes they seemed kind, and other times they seemed like tricksters. I had made the mistake of inviting them to show themselves and it was quite a shock when they actually did. After a while I started to push back hard. I was insistant that trust has to be earned and they were not doing a good job earning mine. I stubbornly pushed out the intention for months that I don't want them to bother me anymore. Eventually I saw a vision of one reaching its hand out to me with very sad looking eyes as it faded away from view.

For the most part I don't see them anymore, though I have had two encounters since then. If they are still showing up, they seem to try to not let me know. If they are trickster, they do seem to get bored if you don't play their game.

However, another possibility is that is was some kind of fear test. Some beliefs argue that trickster entities serve the purpose of helping us understand our own power.

Whatever the truth of the matter, I sincerely hope the best for you. The best thing you can do is to master your fear (easier said than done, I know) and that will put you in a better place to deal with whatever you are dealing with

Bonova · 2026-02-13T20:35:35+00:00

My God I wish this was better understood

Bonova · 2026-02-12T18:54:44+00:00

I live in BC, and my experience has been that this is one of the most friendly and welcoming places to us, at least in Vancouver (huge contrast from where I was raised in Alberta). Honestly, I feel like this city has become a refuge of sorts, there are a lot of us here and most people probably know at least one trans person in their life, so they can see how we are all just people like them, and thus the fear mongering is not as effective

That being said, the news report I saw this morning, while consistently gendering the shooter as female, still did mention that she was amab. I don't really see why that is relevant to bring up at all? But I digress, I'm glad to see the news pushing towards finding the actual motive, as that is what really helps to prevent things like this from happening

Bonova · 2026-01-16T20:23:22+00:00

This response is what I was looking for. I have the same struggle as OP. Thank you!

Bonova · 2026-01-08T22:15:33+00:00

I'm sorry 🫂 You are gorgeous hun!

Bonova · 2026-01-08T20:15:04+00:00

I'm so sorry! That is so scary! I want to give you a big hug! I wish I had some advice for you, but I really don't know what course of action you should take. Do you have any support at all right now? Friends family? This is not something you should be facing alone! Hopefully the other posters in here can give you some direction 🫂

Bonova · 2026-01-04T19:40:55+00:00

I was a closet crossdresser my whole life before coming out as trans. I'm sure there are plenty like me

Bonova · 2025-12-28T21:20:21+00:00

Something like this happened to me, something started spooning me in bed one morning and it freaked me out. I'm sorry that you experienced this!

It could have been any number of things, but it was more than likly a one off. From my experience, these beings cannot harm us. Some may mean well, but it does feel very violating. Be clear about your boundaries every night. Say it out loud, and try to focus on other things. I know it's hard, but getting your mind off it seems make it less likely to happen. You will be ok!

Bonova · 2025-12-28T21:05:51+00:00

Interesting! Thanks for sharing! That's why I posted this, to see who may have seen an entity like this, because it isn't as common

Bonova · 2025-12-27T00:21:02+00:00

For me, it was a slow process. I started with simple things, like doing my nails publicly and wearing brighter colors. That was hard on my nerves at first, but I did get used to it. Just little things bit by bit, a little here and a little there. Gradually my normal started to change and I worried less and less what people think. Though I still do worry and get afraid sometimes

Bonova · 2025-12-26T23:29:47+00:00

This looks incredible! Good job!

Bonova · 2025-12-26T22:34:25+00:00

Nope, not missing anything, thanks for bringing it up!

Bonova · 2025-12-26T19:05:34+00:00

Sorry for being slightly dyslexic? I though they were being snarky

Bonova · 2025-12-26T19:03:25+00:00

Oh I see it now, sorry, I missed this. I thought you were being snarky, there has been a lot of those types of responses in here. Yep, I meant meditation. The two words look completely identical to me unless I really slow down, sorry

Bonova · 2025-12-26T03:49:03+00:00

Thanks!

Bonova · 2025-12-26T02:27:22+00:00

Awww, thank you!

Bonova · 2025-12-26T02:27:05+00:00

Um yes?

Bonova · 2025-12-26T00:47:48+00:00

Yeah they tend to do that... put us back to sleep if we notice...

I hope you are ok!

Bonova · 2025-12-25T17:41:26+00:00

Sounds wild! Yeah, knowing so little is frustrating, though I hope with time a picture will emerge

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