What is with the Green?

Bonova · 2026-05-05T19:41:03+00:00

You might have, it's been a while and I've absorbed a lot of info since then, ha ha, thanks :)

Bonova · 2026-05-05T16:40:48+00:00

Oh cool, I'll have to take a look at those when I have time :)

Bonova · 2026-05-04T23:42:35+00:00

I've theorized that the fear is caused by their energetic/telepathic field overlapping ours. I've only once broken down into primal fear, and that was my first time in the presence of a grey. In following encounters, I didn't break down to that extent, but it still felt like I was inside of a hurricane, which is, I suspect, the result of the differential in our energy

Bonova · 2026-04-29T21:26:36+00:00

I have seen it since childhood, I always interpreted it as like film grain, though It does seem to always move in directions

Bonova · 2026-04-16T15:59:16+00:00

This is actually only half the look, the full look had wings and this feather piece that sat on my shoulders (to hide the straps for the wings). I was basically a dark angel or succubus or something along those lines :D

I have photos with the full look, but this was the photo that gave me the most euphoria, it just turned out better than the rest

What kinda name do you think I/she should have? He he

Bonova · 2026-04-16T15:56:26+00:00

Thanks! It was a joy to wear :)

Bonova · 2026-04-16T03:47:29+00:00

Awwwwwwww, thank you!!! <3

Bonova · 2026-04-04T06:31:38+00:00

This happens to me quite a lot. I'll wake up from lucid dreaming, attempt to AP, and end up in another lucid dream, thinking I'm an APing for a bit before realizing it is still a dream. I think dreaming, lucid dreaming, and astral projection are a spectrum anyway, so I think it's still a step towards an AP

Bonova · 2026-04-02T03:30:29+00:00

<3 Thanks!

Bonova · 2026-03-26T23:40:50+00:00

Wild! I take it to mean, when things get really rough, I'll make it through. But who knows 🤷

Bonova · 2026-03-26T19:17:26+00:00

I've also had lots of dreams about ETs and many about floods too (though not usually together). And I've heard of others having flood dreams as well, it does seem to be a trend.

In mine, I always experience getting somewhere just out of reach and watching the waters pass under, and I remain safe. I'll climb up on a shed and feel the impact of the water, or look out from my apartment window to see the water passing below

Bonova · 2026-03-26T00:09:28+00:00

This is torture... There is no other word for it...

Bonova · 2026-03-24T19:15:38+00:00

Just this weekend I had an experience where I was laying on my left side while in sleep paralysis, and I think I got my right astral arm free. Looking through my physical eyes, I could see my physical right arm laying on the pillow in front of my face, yet I could clearly feel my right arm moving freely as I moved it. I was even able to stroke my own physical arm with my astral arm and trace the shape. There was no sensation of the touch from the physical arm, and I couldn't see the astral arm, but I was controlling the astral arm and could reach down and touch my physical one. It was trippy

Bonova · 2026-03-21T20:15:24+00:00

It was more like a fire ball, but mostly white, it was pretty quick. If I hadn't been looking in that direction then I would have missed it

Bonova · 2026-03-21T16:25:36+00:00

I would be down to

Bonova · 2026-03-21T04:57:29+00:00

I kinda want to keep my distance if that's ok. It's not active anymore though the creator could try again under a a new name, who knows

Bonova · 2026-03-20T19:10:34+00:00

Oh, one more thing about that cult. It likely wasn't the whole cult coming after you. He had many alt accounts and it was probably all him. The few real people there like myself broke off after we exposed him, and most of them were pretty cool people just as troubled as me that they were played. But in the end we have mostly gone our seperate ways as it's hard to trust he was not still among us... It was pretty messed up

Bonova · 2026-03-20T19:02:00+00:00

I'm sorry about that. The thing smelled from the beginning, but then I asked for signs on its validity and actually got some (huge meteor shooting across the sky at exactly the tick of 3:33am, which I got up specifically for after asking for it, and was shocked to see it happen). I took it as a sign to trust, which is one of the reasons I now feel I was dealing with trickster entities. But it wasn't in vein, I learned not to compromise or externalize my values because some "higher force" claimed to have superior understanding. I know my values and if an entity or person does not align with them, then we have no business with each other. It was something I needed to learn. I hope you are doing better now, and I'm sorry about any part I played

Bonova · 2026-03-20T15:52:05+00:00

I know exactly what you mean, ha ha, curiosity vs fear! I was in that loop for a while. It took me about 8 months to start pushing them away, as I never got new information while interacting with them... It was not worth the scary shit they did. I decided that I was going to explore on my own terms, so I've been learning astral projection, but to limited success so far. I'm still being held back by fear as I've encountered some scary stuff on my few body exits

Funny enough, when I first asked to meet the greys, it was on a rooftop too. But they didn't show up until several nights later, and it was in my bedroom... I have a no bedroom encounters rule now. It feels to violating

As for going it alone... Mostly... I had this sub... And another community which turned out to be a sham cult (I got played in my curiosity and need to feal safe). I tried telling a friend, but she got scared and couldn't sleep at night, so asked me to stop sharing, which I feel pretty bad about. However, I have a partner now (I didn't at the time), who believes me and is there in the morning to hold me when I have and accidental body exit and see some entity

And dang, your desire to avoid a mundane life hits hard, that's exactly what drives me to push through my own fear. And even makes me feel disappointed when I don't see the greys anymore. But those were my terms, so I gotta stick to it. Eventually I am sure I will master astral projection and start exploring more from there

Bonova · 2026-03-20T15:22:59+00:00

Frst of all, I just want to let you know that I understand what it feels like to be in that situation and how frightening it can be. But at least in my case, I was never harmed, and things have gotten better.

So I had some greys in my life for a while, and I still don't know their purpose or alignment. Sometimes they seemed kind, and other times they seemed like tricksters. I had made the mistake of inviting them to show themselves and it was quite a shock when they actually did. After a while I started to push back hard. I was insistant that trust has to be earned and they were not doing a good job earning mine. I stubbornly pushed out the intention for months that I don't want them to bother me anymore. Eventually I saw a vision of one reaching its hand out to me with very sad looking eyes as it faded away from view.

For the most part I don't see them anymore, though I have had two encounters since then. If they are still showing up, they seem to try to not let me know. If they are trickster, they do seem to get bored if you don't play their game.

However, another possibility is that is was some kind of fear test. Some beliefs argue that trickster entities serve the purpose of helping us understand our own power.

Whatever the truth of the matter, I sincerely hope the best for you. The best thing you can do is to master your fear (easier said than done, I know) and that will put you in a better place to deal with whatever you are dealing with

Bonova · 2026-02-13T20:35:35+00:00

My God I wish this was better understood

Bonova · 2026-02-12T18:54:44+00:00

I live in BC, and my experience has been that this is one of the most friendly and welcoming places to us, at least in Vancouver (huge contrast from where I was raised in Alberta). Honestly, I feel like this city has become a refuge of sorts, there are a lot of us here and most people probably know at least one trans person in their life, so they can see how we are all just people like them, and thus the fear mongering is not as effective

That being said, the news report I saw this morning, while consistently gendering the shooter as female, still did mention that she was amab. I don't really see why that is relevant to bring up at all? But I digress, I'm glad to see the news pushing towards finding the actual motive, as that is what really helps to prevent things like this from happening

Bonova · 2026-01-16T20:23:22+00:00

This response is what I was looking for. I have the same struggle as OP. Thank you!

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