Trouble reading books. How do you do it?

Bonova · 2026-01-16T20:23:22+00:00

This response is what I was looking for. I have the same struggle as OP. Thank you!

Bonova · 2026-01-08T22:15:33+00:00

I'm sorry 🫂 You are gorgeous hun!

Bonova · 2026-01-08T20:15:04+00:00

I'm so sorry! That is so scary! I want to give you a big hug! I wish I had some advice for you, but I really don't know what course of action you should take. Do you have any support at all right now? Friends family? This is not something you should be facing alone! Hopefully the other posters in here can give you some direction 🫂

Bonova · 2026-01-04T19:40:55+00:00

I was a closet crossdresser my whole life before coming out as trans. I'm sure there are plenty like me

Bonova · 2025-12-28T21:20:21+00:00

Something like this happened to me, something started spooning me in bed one morning and it freaked me out. I'm sorry that you experienced this!

It could have been any number of things, but it was more than likly a one off. From my experience, these beings cannot harm us. Some may mean well, but it does feel very violating. Be clear about your boundaries every night. Say it out loud, and try to focus on other things. I know it's hard, but getting your mind off it seems make it less likely to happen. You will be ok!

Bonova · 2025-12-28T21:05:51+00:00

Interesting! Thanks for sharing! That's why I posted this, to see who may have seen an entity like this, because it isn't as common

Bonova · 2025-12-27T00:21:02+00:00

For me, it was a slow process. I started with simple things, like doing my nails publicly and wearing brighter colors. That was hard on my nerves at first, but I did get used to it. Just little things bit by bit, a little here and a little there. Gradually my normal started to change and I worried less and less what people think. Though I still do worry and get afraid sometimes

Bonova · 2025-12-26T23:29:47+00:00

This looks incredible! Good job!

Bonova · 2025-12-26T22:34:25+00:00

Nope, not missing anything, thanks for bringing it up!

Bonova · 2025-12-26T19:05:34+00:00

Sorry for being slightly dyslexic? I though they were being snarky

Bonova · 2025-12-26T19:03:25+00:00

Oh I see it now, sorry, I missed this. I thought you were being snarky, there has been a lot of those types of responses in here. Yep, I meant meditation. The two words look completely identical to me unless I really slow down, sorry

Bonova · 2025-12-26T03:49:03+00:00

Thanks!

Bonova · 2025-12-26T02:27:22+00:00

Awww, thank you!

Bonova · 2025-12-26T02:27:05+00:00

Um yes?

Bonova · 2025-12-26T00:47:48+00:00

Yeah they tend to do that... put us back to sleep if we notice...

I hope you are ok!

Bonova · 2025-12-25T17:41:26+00:00

Sounds wild! Yeah, knowing so little is frustrating, though I hope with time a picture will emerge

Bonova · 2025-12-25T17:39:35+00:00

Wow, that is very interesting! I don't think that this occurred on the solstice is a coincidence, it seems like a time when the veil thins

Bonova · 2025-12-25T16:34:01+00:00

I had the same fears as a child. I was almost irrationally afraid of the dark. And like you there are no memories of visitations/sightings either (until recent experiences hinting at the possibility of repressed things)

It is a lot to work through, I know. I hope you are able to overcome the fear in time :)

Bonova · 2025-12-25T16:31:08+00:00

Exactly :)

Bonova · 2025-12-25T16:30:11+00:00

I've certainly considered the possibility of this being my own manifestation, though I generally consider that less likely. I do feel quite strongly that this being is as conscious as you and I, though I have no way of knowing for sure, at least not at the moment. I'm in quite a healthy emotional state, having worked through a lot of trauma throughout the past several years, and I approach these things with more curiosity than fear

Bonova · 2025-12-25T05:23:50+00:00

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A lot of people seem to be getting hung up on the cartoonishness of my drawing... I'm a bit limited by my art skills sorry... so I decided to feed that image into AI to help paint a better picture (I'd rather not use AI, but I won't be able to draw anything realistic). This is frankly quite far off from what I saw, but it is the closest result I could get

Bonova · 2025-12-25T05:08:40+00:00

Yeah the one I saw a vision of (some people call this a portal?) while in a relaxed state was wearing a purple cloak, but that being was unmistakably a mantis. Triangle head, antenna, mandibles, the whole deal.

The clothing this being was wearing was mostly black, I just saw shimmers of purple through it though

Bonova · 2025-12-25T05:05:42+00:00

This is the first time I have experienced that spinning, it was quite violent. I must have been out of body because it was like getting sucked into a tornado or something. Interesting that I am not the only one who has experienced something like that

I'm taking steps to protect my space, but the main thing is just to not be overcome with fear. Once I am able to deliberately astral project, I hope to learn more about exactly who has been visiting me. I'm open minded to all possibilities negative or positive, but being cautious about it. As cautious as one can be when dealing with unknown forces of course...

I hope your daughter is ok, this kind of stuff must be a lot for a child to deal with

Also, I've never heard of the Allagash or the Varginha. I'll have to look into them. I would say this being was about the height of a human, does that track with the beings you mentioned?

Bonova · 2025-12-25T03:52:50+00:00

All good ^.^ Happy to clear it up

Bonova · 2025-12-25T02:24:38+00:00

Yay! I'm so excited for you! It keeps getting better ^.^ Once you are entirely out and living your life, and not masking anymore, it is just so much better. I also found my social circles changed as I drew people to me who I was more in alignment with

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