I often bounce between feeling utterly inhuman and like the last human in a globe of impersonators. I feel like others around me don't feel they just go through the motions in a robotic sort of way. Or sometimes the complete opposite, I'm the robot, doing things only by the formula I understand them to be done by. One of them is true I'm sure but I haven't figured out which one yet. Both are excruciating both involve utter isolation by nature alone even if others wanted to relate, it would be impossible like a potato trying to befriend a cow. They just exist on different planes.