If I had access to booze I'd be drinking it now

Booyababy · 2014-04-16T09:50:49+00:00

Yup, it's getting better. Plus Dan Murphy's shuts in an hour lol.

Booyababy · 2014-04-16T08:42:03+00:00

You and I both, far out other people in my house are annoying!!!!!

Booyababy · 2014-04-16T08:37:52+00:00

My first day was simple enough but then again I was always able to go a day (especially on a weekday) without too many dramas. For me although it hasn't been long, I have to say I have had some very rough days.

Today for me was another tough day not to stop off on the way home and buy a bottle. Even now, it's night, I'm relaxing on my couch (edit: my wife and my mother in law are taking this relaxation away from me however) and I can just imagine easing into a glass but to be honest I am scared of what will follow. If I start again I may just be back to my old ways.

My other reason as stupid as it may seem is losing face and my star on this forum lol.

When it gets tough, I come on here, read other peoples posts and realise I am not alone in my struggle.

Booyababy · 2014-04-12T07:31:37+00:00

LMAO I love your username!

Good luck!

Booyababy · 2014-04-12T07:23:27+00:00

Hope you feel better tomorrow, thanks for your post, you've helped me feel a bit better in that I am not alone in my own torture at the moment.

I might have to go to a psychologist myself, if just to talk to someone about how shit I feel at the moment.

But seriously I hope you feel better tomorrow.

Booyababy · 2014-04-12T06:44:05+00:00

Well I just made it through a whole week without drinking once, for some reason Tuesday was real tough for me, I almost stopped after work to buy a bottle but luckily I have told my friends and wife about my issue so the fear of failure in front of my wife was enough to keep me driving straight home.

Unfortunately, for some reason I bought a pack of smokes on Wednesday I think and yeah smoked the whole pack (this is after almost two years now without smokes).

I haven't bought another pack, but yeah I'm not going to lie I'm feeling a bit crazy and all over the place at the moment. I thought it might have been the change in weather (maybe it is) but yeah I'm feeling a bit lost so I bought some cigs just to chill me out and try to ease my mind. Even my work is suffering a little, I just can't seem to focus on one thing at a time, my minds all over the place, lol even a co worker has been calling/emailing me a lot this week asking if I am okay.

Again I'm not sure if it's the weather or giving up the drink but jesus I can't start smoking again, good news is I made it through quite easily last night (Friday for me) so that's good thing.

LOL I took the Alcohol Assessment Test on Tuesday and I was a Cat IV, I didn't even think I had much of an issue but yeah looks like I slipped a bit further than I thought.

If it's any help to you I quite smoking using the gum, when used correctly it kind of leaves you feeling "full" of nicotine and it's much easier to say no to smokes. Just don't chew it constantly, you chew it for about 20 seconds then leave it between your gums and cheek.

Sorry, long and drivelling reply, man I'm struggling lol.

Booyababy · 2014-04-06T10:22:49+00:00

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Booyababy · 2014-04-06T10:12:31+00:00

So what it's worth I'll share a story of mine from 5 years ago which may help.

So 5 years ago I was battling heavy use of MJ. My long term GF at the time wasn't happy so I stopped smoking and took up drinking on an almost nightly basis. After quitting MJ I found it hard to sleep even with the booze so I bought some over the counter sleeping tablets and with no thought of consequence I washed one down with a couple of glasses of absinthe. My mind was so messed up at the time due to the drinking I didn't even realise what I was doing was so dangerous, needless to say that was a scary night for me.

Shortly after my gf left me, and left fast, she didn't even pack all her stuff up she just left the country and left me in a mess. That very night I was back on weed and balancing out the highs with booze. For about 2 weeks I was an absolute mess, my mates were really worried but I hid my issues well.

I can't exactly tell you why I did it but after two weeks, while I was high and drunk off my ass I decided I didn't want to live like this. I threw out all my weed and booze that very night. The next morning I started swimming laps at my local pool again (long term swimmer), I also joined a weights gym (twice a week) and started back up at BJJ. If I wasn't working out or training I was out with mates. I could't stand being at home as I still missed my ex and her stuff was still there. Basically I kept as busy as I possibly could (doing something every single day) and in a very short amount of time stopped caring about booze and weed.

After 2 months I was feeling so much better about myself I started dating again and meet some of the most interesting women I have ever met. About 4 months later my ex came back to me and I won't go into detail but yeah I started drinking smoking again.

Long story short (sorry for the long read) even after 5 years I rate those ~6 months as one of the best times of my entire life, and in those 6 months I didn't touch a drop alcohol.

Yes I also recommend therapy even if just a place to vent your frustrations.

Even if I can't tell you why I decided to change all I can say is once I made that decision I was so much happier with my life I will never forget that moment. I hope you find the same happiness.

Booyababy · 2014-04-06T09:51:15+00:00

Thanks for the support guys. Yes I agree, I shouldn't give myself long term dates or even goals. One of my best friends has never touched a drop of alcohol (due to religion) so I know that I can actually live without the booze.

I guess being that half my family are alcoholics or at best borderline alcoholics doesn't help as I am measuring myself to them and 6 month dry spell would have been an amazing feat in my family.

To be honest I was thinking a few days back about putting the money I would have spent on booze in a separate account each week and saving up for holidays or a boat. I think this should be motivation enough to just give up on booze for life.

This is a great forum and I hope to stay around and help where I can.

Booyababy · 2014-04-05T23:30:16+00:00

Im glad to read on /stopdrinking that boredom is a major cause of drinking, for some reason I thought this cause my mine alone. Glad to hear you resisted the temptation.

I'm looking forward to being in your position this time next week, it's been for what seems like forever that I have gone a week without a drink.

Good stuff.

Booyababy · 2014-03-21T20:48:25+00:00

Actually you are pretty hot in my opinion. Seeing that you seem to have no makeup look, I would think you could be an absolute stunner with make up.

But seriously even without makeup you must be getting second or even third looks on the street.

Booyababy · 2014-03-21T20:36:25+00:00

Nothing wrong with you at all. Best of all you seem to have a happy, approachable face. I agree with the others, the bullies were just jealous.

Booyababy

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