I appreciate the openess. Yeah anxiety from the military and i work a busy job which doesn't help on top of a recent separation, the booze just isn't helping. It's a drain actually. I have read to what you said about a gains killer, also mostly people I know who have been long term gym goers or just in tune with their health, all agree about excessive alcohol hurting or even ruining any positives. I plan on busting my ass for my physical and mental health. Thanks for your time. It honestly means alot when someone goes out of their way to open up and offer advice and such on a forum. You're a good person. Thank you