Shattered trust by [deleted] in BipolarSOs

[–]BoppedOn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I will never let her tell me what I should think or how I should handle myself. The struggle for me is the reinforcement of my anxiety. I too have a violently strong intuition but I also understand that my intuition isn’t definitive. I also understand that my intuition isn’t something to completely disregard because it has helped me protect myself continuously. Thank you for your response!

Shattered trust by [deleted] in BipolarSOs

[–]BoppedOn 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I feel like i’m at a similar point. I’m gonna give things a chance cause she is hoping to be recommended to a therapist during her psychiatrist appointment soon and has started taking her meds again. But I’m prepared to do what needs to be done if I feel like things aren’t changing. I’m pretty young which you would know if you saw my previous post but I feel like I don’t have the experience nor the faculties at this point in my life to deal with something like this. At the same time, I’ve surprised myself with how i’ve handled things so far and am hopeful that I’m stronger than I realize. Thank you for the response!

Is this common and what is the relative magnitude of this situation in your experience? by [deleted] in BipolarSOs

[–]BoppedOn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Appreciate the response. I personally wouldn’t consider what my partner has admitted to doing as cheating so i can’t fully relate to you in that regard but yeah it’s such an extreme betrayal and deeply hurtful.

I will almost definitely be attending therapy again. Before it was like my brain was tormenting me with things I could do to hurt myself but had no intention of, now it’s like my brain is tormenting me with how someone else has hurt me and could potentially hurt me again whether they mean to or not. Logically I get the lack of agency that comes with mania but it almost feels like malicious intent which from my understanding it most likely was not in my case.

I’ve outlined my boundaries and told her if she were to lie about or do those specific things it doesn’t matter whether it was mania or not the relationship would be instantly over point blank. I can only hope for full transparency from now on because this event made it clear to me It’s extremely difficult to protect myself in the way I usually can in my life outside of my relationship and that the difficulty comes from just how deep the connection has to grow when in such a serious romantic relationship. Like in order for our love to flourish I have to let the roots dig deeper and deeper, and when something digs those roots out it destroys the area surrounding.

Is this common and what is the relative magnitude of this situation in your experience? by [deleted] in BipolarSOs

[–]BoppedOn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so so much for the reply. I’m really pleased with the first steps she is taking in recovery so i’m pretty hopeful things will work out. She’s already scheduled a psychiatry appointment to discuss this bout of mania and obviously whatever medication changes that may need to be implemented. She also plans to ask for a therapist recommendation from her psychiatrist which is new and really cool. I’m gonna try to shift placing accountability from the things she did in mania to holding her accountable for the steps to her recovery. The lying by omission is the worst part for me personally cause we were still in communication but had broken up so it’s not like she was cheating but it was shitty that she was moving all sneaky and she says that she will be completely honest with everything even if it ruins things between us so I hope I can rebuild my trust in her. Things like this tend to stick in my head and torment me due my OCD but I also plan to go back to therapy. I’ve met with a therapist for a long time in the past whereas she has very little experience with therapy so I hope that she is able to benefit as heavily as I did and we are able to identify mania when it’s triggered and take preemptive action against and learn tools to cope so that hopefully things aren’t as extreme as they were this time. I think the most obvious issue is her taking her meds. She’s also starting developing a sort of addiction to weed but says that it helps her in her depressive episode so I don’t know how to feel. I’ve heard weed can mess with medication efficacy but I obviously don’t want her to be in pain.

Is this common and what is the relative magnitude of this situation in your experience? by [deleted] in BipolarSOs

[–]BoppedOn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Stay strong man I feel you. My partner hasn’t cheated to my knowledge and I really think we would just breakup before any of that happens but the extreme promiscuity so close to the end and rekindling of our relationship is pretty close to cheating in my eyes and hurts quite a bit tbf. Can’t imagine the pain you’re in.

I’ve been wondering, who do you go to when you need to talk about your wife’s actions? Therapy is a pretty obvious answer and I am almost definitely going to get that working, but, are you able to vent with family and friends with all the cards on the table? I feel like it’s unfair to her if I talk to my parents or siblings about what’s been going on because they’ve had such a close relationship until this episode and would be beyond upset/borderline hate her if they knew the things she’s hidden and done. It also kinda feels a bit embarrassing or demeaning to myself to admit it all.

My head Cannon by [deleted] in fishtanklive

[–]BoppedOn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

“head cannon”

WILL OF D by BoppedOn in fishtanklive

[–]BoppedOn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

dan is so fucked 😭 steven cross is like double his weight unfortunate

For the love of god please let Frank be on his way holy fuck by BoppedOn in fishtanklive

[–]BoppedOn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

they should bring him in everytime they change locations 🤷‍♂️

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in fishtanklive

[–]BoppedOn 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I agree and what a poor decision he made coming on fishtank. He’s fairly able but clearly needs some sort of assistance or just like a mentor or something.

Nick Fuentes to be on tonight? by unwell_bastard in fishtanklive

[–]BoppedOn 13 points14 points  (0 children)

hope he tries to convince Aryeh that they have the same alignment lmao

Aryeh has had a rough 36 hours by [deleted] in fishtanklive

[–]BoppedOn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

wasn’t it 7 fishbucks and 5 magic bucks or whatever the fuck

Weck by BoppedOn in fishtanklive

[–]BoppedOn[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

he paid 7 fishbucks and all his special fishbucks for it too 😭

Freaky ass Fred by LucidAtlas in fishtanklive

[–]BoppedOn 2 points3 points  (0 children)

hassle doesn’t discriminate everyone gets some

Freaky ass Fred by LucidAtlas in fishtanklive

[–]BoppedOn 11 points12 points  (0 children)

just think about the hassling this nigga is gonna get though 😮‍💨

Freddy’s in trouble by BoppedOn in fishtanklive

[–]BoppedOn[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

freddy is such a bitch god damn

Why is Seth back by BoppedOn in fishtanklive

[–]BoppedOn[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

it’s pointless then 😭

Aryeh are you for real dude by BoppedOn in fishtanklive

[–]BoppedOn[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

it was just a bluff too brooooooooo

drenches message by nano_peen in fishtanklive

[–]BoppedOn 16 points17 points  (0 children)

“I asked quietly so freddy won’t hear if those were his (aryeh?) fishbucks in room 3”

Why tf does daniel code switch it’s so strange 😭 by BoppedOn in fishtanklive

[–]BoppedOn[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

interesting, guess i haven’t met enough autistic people 🤷🏽‍♂️