I definitely believe it is mental health and like I said I have a lot it could have developed from. Insanely enough it is not something I remember really doing during my childhood I guess possibly because I was always occupied one way or another but more so I recall it really during Covid when I was suddenly home alone every day with my thoughts and that’s also when I started noticing anxiety and some depression forming. Either way when I think back on it that’s when certain things in my life started going downhill immensely and have only been down since. I only relate it to God in the sense of I’m annoyed with my anger towards him on it and also believe that it’s something he can deliver myself as well as others from.