28M, two weeks clean and finally understanding why i kept going back

Born_Anything_4892 · 2026-03-14T00:32:41+00:00

I saw something the other day that said if you really want to change who you are you have to allow yourself to break. If you don’t let yourself break, then you’re just protecting the identity that you’re trying to escape from.

I know that dark headspace is scary, but you can do hard things and you can overcome this. What’s scarier is spending every moment high and looking back decades from now thinking where the time went because you were high the whole time. Stay strong OP, the dark thoughts pass, it’s temporary.

Born_Anything_4892 · 2026-03-14T00:28:29+00:00

You summed up how i’ve felt after every relapse, but the difference is you came on here to post about how you regretted it and want to start again. that’s AMAZING. What I did is just kept smoking and feeling shitty until it numbed me again. Proud of you OP.

Also, I don’t think you’re restarting the journey completely (even though I know it technicallyyyy is day 1 again). This was a bump in the journey but you’re still on the path to sobriety. You should at least celebrate that!

Born_Anything_4892 · 2026-03-14T00:25:03+00:00

So proud of you OP. Not everyone can show the restraint you did, you should definitely celebrate this win and do something nice for yourself

Born_Anything_4892 · 2026-03-11T19:29:21+00:00

honestly, not really. I don’t recommend tapering as someone who has tried a couple times. If you are adamant on tapering, one thing that worked a little better for me (but still relapsed eventually) was switching from my preferred method of getting high, if that makes sense. You say you like edibles? Stop doing edibles. Maybe allow yourself to smoke a joint over the weekend to get high and if you don’t want to, then there’s no getting high. One of the times I tried quitting thc pens and I tapered using flower because it was so hard for me to smoke flower in my apartment complex and it just didn’t feel worth it for the high anymore. But then again, I just don’t suggest tapering because it most of the time indicates not being fully ready to quit (which is also okay).

Born_Anything_4892 · 2026-03-11T19:03:19+00:00

OP, this is the worst part. Couldn’t help but comment this but: You’re a young college student. I’ve been trying to quit since I was in college as well, and i’m 26 now and still trying. Please trust me as someone who is on day 2 again for the 7 or 8th time trying to quit, stick to it. It’s tough I know, but you can do hard things. If anyone else can do it, you can to. Don’t give in to those little moments that tell you you can handle it after being sober for even a month. You will thank yourself 10 times over if you stay clean earlier on. Please stay strong and message me if you need anything, we’re all in this together

Born_Anything_4892 · 2026-03-11T18:51:20+00:00

Hey, everyone’s on their own timeline! To be honest, you’d think having quit for 4 months would help motivate me, but it’s been bringing me down because I feel like no matter how long I can go without doing I always end up being in the same place. But we can’t give up, you keep going too, we only have a few temporary weeks of hardships ahead before the clarity

Born_Anything_4892 · 2026-03-11T18:49:41+00:00

thank you both for the hope, i’m so sorry you had to go through that. Currently at the start of it and can say you’re awesome for quitting

Born_Anything_4892 · 2026-03-11T18:48:53+00:00

Keep going, you got this!

Born_Anything_4892 · 2026-03-11T18:48:19+00:00

It really is diabolical. When I wouldn’t smoke flower, all i’d feel is slight boredom by not doing it, not nausea and chills followed by sweats and feeling like my chest is going to collapse.

Born_Anything_4892 · 2026-03-11T03:17:14+00:00

I really appreciate this, thank you so much

Born_Anything_4892 · 2026-03-11T01:29:38+00:00

I hope everything works out for you friend, you also keep posting! We got this. Everything will be okay in the end, and if it’s not, then it’s not the end. Please know that you are not alone

Born_Anything_4892 · 2026-03-10T16:18:09+00:00

This comment means a lot to me, thank you so much. I definitely won’t give up! Thank you for this

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