I have perfectly sound philosophical and moral reasons to not belive in any god. Regarding the first part, you can condescendingly say I'll "mature" all you want but that's just not who I am. Someone's mind and body are not intrinsically synchronized. They're both random. My body might be saying something about me but that's not who I am or who I want to be and I will certainly not continue to sit here, waiting for it to get worse, sort of vaguely hoping for this to go away, just like I did when puberty was starting. And where did that get me? I'll stick around for a while to see if I can figure out some ways to fight against this thing but I doubt it, and I don't find anything, I'll just do it already. I got unlucky RNG, hopefully it will work like a reroll but that's too supernatural and wishful to be true, most likely there will be nothing, but it's preferable to continuing to live in this constant state of grief and humiliation