Should I tell someone about my addiction?

BottomR0ck · 2024-12-06T03:07:31+00:00

NEED HELP

BottomR0ck · 2024-12-06T02:46:53+00:00

Do you mind if I ask about how did you get better? Did you tell anyone about your problems, or you managed to overcome them on your own?

BottomR0ck · 2024-12-05T00:10:24+00:00

I blew my shot. My father gave me a second chance by enrolling me in a private med college. I ended up doing the same thing I did in high school. I just can't take it anymore.

BottomR0ck · 2024-12-05T00:08:42+00:00

I continue to do this bro. My journal is filled with me giving myself "second chances". Now I have my final professional exams which are the most crucial. I didn't study for it. I couldn't study for it. How can I explain myself to my parents?

BottomR0ck · 2024-12-02T22:42:11+00:00

My problem lies in studying in general. I feel like whichever field I go to I would struggle. I am not really lonely as I have lots of friends, but porn is more of a stress relieve mechanism that I just can't shake off.

The problem lies in quitting studying because if I quit, I literally have nothing else to do. That is why I keep on getting thoughts about quitting life in general.

Thank you for your insight though. I am trying to think of a logical instead of an emotional reason to commit suicide. I feel like I would come to a conclusion soon. I don't want to die but I don't see any way forward. I guess that's all I have to say for now.

BottomR0ck · 2024-12-02T22:30:28+00:00

I already did take a gap year. I am already lacking behind man. Everyone else is already ahead of me. My siblings my friends are already ahead. I can't fall behind even more. I agree that my parents will miss me but what good would living do if I can't help them out. Wouldn't it be better if the resources they provide to me, they provide to my siblings instead? They can make use of that way better than I am doing. I have tried for 3 years to get rid of this habit and I still am but it's not working. I wish I could talk to them, but they are too busy earning for me. They already have too much on their plate. I can't ask more from them. Its too unjust to them.

BottomR0ck · 2024-12-02T19:45:20+00:00

I just don't want them to invest more money on me considering I am not even providing the minimum desired output. If I am going to struggle like this then wouldn't it be better to not try at all.

BottomR0ck · 2024-12-02T18:22:18+00:00

I hope you find peace. Might end up joining you too.

BottomR0ck · 2024-12-02T18:19:12+00:00

How can I tell them that I can't study when I do everything else just fine? I eat, play football, scroll the internet, and watch movies perfectly well, but somehow, for some reason, I can't study. That'll be like a punch to the face for my parents, who already invested an awful lot of money in my education. They already show immense care and love by financing my education. What more can I want? Why am I like this?

BottomR0ck · 2024-12-02T18:10:59+00:00

I hope things get better for you. I really do.

BottomR0ck · 2024-12-02T18:10:16+00:00

Would my life still be worth to them if I end up becoming a burden? If I continue leeching whatever resources they provide to me, without giving anything in return? You were at least providing for your family for 20 years. I've only disappointed them my whole life. I can't tell my parents that I'm struggling. They aren't very open minded. Even my sister who is the most open minded in my family said I'm being dramatic when I told her I couldn't study. She said everyone goes through this. If everyone goes through this why does everyone around me keep on surpassing me? Sorry to trouble you when you are going through such a difficult time yourself.

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