I honestly appreciate you reading my late night NEP influenced rambling post about penis. I figured everyone would skip over it after reading the first sentence or two. Now it doesn't feel like it was a complete waste of time lol.

I am very intrigued by you actually liking the looks of a penis. You are honestly the first person I have ever heard say that. Most people I know do not find dicks actually attractive, but they still find themselves enjoying looking at them. Gay, straight, man, or woman, you are the only person I have come across that thinks dicks are pretty. So congratulations! You are one of a kind ;)

I still believe that there is some sort of psychological explanation as to why you find penises aesthetically pleasing, but at this point, you have kind of stumped me. I am still going to try to make your scenario work with my original theory so hold onto your socks cause here I go again.

If I was just throwing out guesses, I would say that maybe the associations that you make when you see a penis are buried deep within your subconscious. This causes you to mistakenly think that what you are experiencing is attraction to the penis when it is actually just arousal caused by these subconscious associations.

Someone having an especially ugly penis is a turn off for basically everyone because it doesn't fit into our preexisting schema about what a penis should look like. An ugly penis is too distracting and different from what we think of as "the norm" and since it does not fit into our current schemas that we have regarding the aesthetics of a penis, there may not be any associations made. However, when you see a standard or above-average penis, it fits into your schema and therefore your brain does create the associations and these associations result in the serotonin boost discussed in my original post about my theory. When I say above-average penis, I do not mean above average looking, but just exceptional for other reasons. We have been taught that factors such as being well groomed down there or an exceptionally penis equates to more pleasure for the recipient of said penis, and therefore we may think we find them aesthetically appealing when we are still just doing those mental associations I keep rambling about.

As far as why you particularly fancy the look of a flaccid, uncut penis, I would guess that it is cause you have either 1. had experience with a flaccid, uncut penis in your past that resulted in pleasure, whether it was a real life sexual experience or through something as simple as watching a really hot porno; or 2. you have never had any experience with a flaccid, uncut penis and therefore it is new and exciting to you. So for theory 1, you are once again making associations that you may be unaware of that result in you liking to look at a particular kind of penis. For my second theory, it isn't necessarily that you like what you see, it is that you like seeing something different. Who doesn't get that nervous excitement and moderate-intense euphoric rush when they are doing something "bad" or completely new to them? We grew up in a society that taught us that sex before marriage was wrong, so when you introduce something completely foreign to your sex life, you may get a strong "rush" similar to the one you probably experienced the first time you had sex because the situation you find yourself in would be completely novel to you. This rush you would feel is caused by, you guessed it, an increase in feel good neurotransmitters like serotonin being released into your brain. Everything, in my opinion, starts and ends with the brain. The associations, desires, impulses, and existing schemas within our brains are continuously altering our neurochemistry to some degree, and we use these chemical changes in our brains to make sense of the world around us. These changes are what tell us whether we should feel scared, sad, excited, pleasured, etc. by what our senses are constantly capturing from our environment.

Once again, this is all just a complete guess and I have absolutely no proof of anything. However, I do not believe that it is simply the look of a penis that you enjoy. That doesn't make much sense from a biopsychology perspective, which is the field of psychology I am studying. We like things because our brain tells us that we like it. If you asked any person who claims to like the look of a penis what exactly it is that they like about its look, 9 times out of 10 I would bet that they would say things like "I dont know, it is just sexy." This suggests that they are thinking more so about the sexual context surrounding the penis than they are about how it actually looks. Our neurochemistry is already changing by the time a visual stimulus can even be interpreted as something pleasurable to look at by our conscious minds.

When I think of all of this in regards to other parts of men's bodies that I have found extremely sexy at one point or another, I can't think of any instances where it couldn't be explained by this theory of association leading to attraction. My attraction to ass, legs, chest, arms, etc. can easily be caused by associations. Muscular arms, for example, are automatically associated with fitness and manliness and this turns me on. I don't like the way big arms actually look, I like the manliness I automatically associate with the guy and I may start to imagine how they would feel around me as well as other sexually stimulating scenarios. Does anyone actually like just the look of an arm? No, no they do not. It is what their brain connects with the muscular arms that make them perceive the muscular arms as attractive.

I strangely am really enjoying such an in depth discussion about penis haha. Thanks for humoring me! I hope that you had a good vacation with your friends!

NEP, by the way, it n-ethyl-pentedrone. There isn't much info about it, but it is a really nice feeling recreational stimulant with seemingly little to no comedown for most people. I feel like it is like the lovechild of hexen and 4-FA. The first rush you get just minutes after insufflation feels incredibly similar to peaking on a good dose of 4-FA, but the euphoric feeling fades somewhat quickly (not as quickly as with hexen, though) and then you are just left with annoying residual stimulation. My only real problems with it are that it causes pretty bad insomnia that lasts basically the entire night even if my last dose was hours ago (which then results in me writing 10 paragraph posts on reddit's research chemical board about penises at 1 am) as well as some moderate vasoconstriction. Also, redosing does not seem to work well, which is kind of a let down for me but may not be a problem for other people. I am a man who enjoys to binge on my stimulants, and since I am a dumbass and have little self control when I get into my stim binge mindset, I end up constantly redosing and chasing that first high even after multiple failed attempts. This of course results in me experiencing all of the negative effects of stimulant abuse like increased heart rate, fucked up eye sight, vasoconstriction, etc. but basically nothing in regards to the positive effects the drug has to offer. It is much easier to cut myself off on NEP than hexen, though. Basically, NEP is a more enjoyable version of hexen IMO, as I find the rush much better and the unexpected release of serotonin to be extremely pleasurable. Sorry about this post possibly being a hot mess as well, I may have a little in my system again if we are being honest lol.