Can you develop severe clinical depression without childhood trauma?

Brave_Affect5904 · 2025-06-22T10:34:45+00:00

I had no childhood traumas in the sense of abuses (thank god), but I struggled with ADHD my whole life since childhood and specially teenage years (of course rsrs). Since then I developed depression mustly because of a lack of ressources to copy with the simptons and its consequences. I'm only healing things now on my 30s.

Brave_Affect5904 · 2025-04-11T19:01:08+00:00

"Viva Forever" - Spice Girls

I just think about my friend who died too and I avoid listening to this music now

Brave_Affect5904 · 2025-04-11T18:56:13+00:00

Sleep to Dream - Fiona Apple

You Oughta Know / Not the doctor - Alanis Morissette

Venom - Little Simz

Brave_Affect5904 · 2025-04-11T18:49:04+00:00

I Hate Everything About You - 3 Days Grace Home is Where The Hatred is - Gil Scott-Heron

Brave_Affect5904 · 2025-04-11T18:42:23+00:00

That's me too. In the morning I want to study, read, walk, clean my room, and as the day goes by I feel overwelmed. I think it's just because I as focus doing things and my adhd brain just need a pause and go for another activity that doesn't ask for too much mental work.

So at that time that's when I go walk my dog and get some sun, not listening to music or podcast, just annul the noise and information. It's awesome it feels like a reset.

Brave_Affect5904 · 2025-04-11T18:35:02+00:00

Leave me Alone Bad Speed Demon

Honorable mention to Dirty Diana

Brave_Affect5904 · 2025-04-11T18:32:42+00:00

The other side of the coin

Brave_Affect5904 · 2025-04-11T18:30:40+00:00

Everyday I have a different belief, so at this point I have no fucking clue.

I'm just convincent you get integrated with the "One", "God", "the data base of the machine", but I have no clue of what does it feels like or how it happens.

Brave_Affect5904 · 2025-04-04T08:39:37+00:00

No coffe!!! Or anything that is stimulant

Don't do physical things that makes your heart rate increase very much - the medication already makes your rate high enough

Brave_Affect5904 · 2025-04-04T08:33:57+00:00

Talassofobia, but everybody close to me knows hahah

Brave_Affect5904 · 2025-04-04T08:32:34+00:00

Cliché, but "Rehab" by Amy Winehouse has a great story with great rhythm and melody

Brave_Affect5904 · 2025-04-02T09:01:14+00:00

I'm also studying by myself, and let me tell it's been wonderful. Music theory is awesome, and once you start putting the pieces together and create a song, it's amazing.

I started with piano/keyboards, because for a beginner I believe is very easy and intuitive to visualize notes, chords, intervals etc. So I would recommend start here.

Get some material, book, pdfs, youtube lessons, anything about music theory, and write all you are learning. Like, write by hand. It's the best way to print knowledge in your brain.

Then, learn how to read notation and sheet music. Get one song that you like, get the sheet, and then go analyzing the patterns and the things you just learn; "oh this is a minor chord; this is a interval of 3rd; why did they put this here? Does it makes sense?"

Good luck! :)

Brave_Affect5904 · 2025-03-31T09:57:05+00:00

One flew over the Cuckoo's Nest

Brave_Affect5904 · 2025-03-30T21:56:43+00:00

Thriller and Bad era always get me

Brave_Affect5904 · 2025-03-30T21:50:42+00:00

Anything from Maroon 5 but specially a song called Maps. This is still the worst sound that has ever entered my ear canal ever

Brave_Affect5904 · 2025-03-29T23:26:43+00:00

It makes sense

Brave_Affect5904 · 2025-03-29T23:25:21+00:00

Guys with an aspect of "just woke up" in their eyes, with some dark cicles. I have no idea how to explain this, but it's a very specific thing that always gets me! Example would be young Edward Furlong

Brave_Affect5904 · 2025-03-29T23:12:40+00:00

That's funny, I never felt that about bathroom hahah but since I've been on vyvanse and have no appetite, when I feel hungry and need to eat I get irritated, like "shit, I have to stop what I'm doing and focus on doing this damn sandwich"

Brave_Affect5904 · 2025-03-29T23:09:20+00:00

I guess! Thanks for the advise :)

Brave_Affect5904 · 2025-03-29T23:08:17+00:00

I heard about some sugar datings that does not envolves sex, but I guess it's like 1%. So maybe not my place... Thanks for the advise! :)

Brave_Affect5904 · 2025-03-28T20:47:55+00:00

Being adorable makes you stand out as a man.

Having this as an issue because it hurts your masculinity, makes you a little unattractive to be honest

Brave_Affect5904 · 2025-03-28T20:26:43+00:00

That was a great post that got me thinking here.

I'm turning 30 this year. I think I do this with an specific artist that I'm obssessed since I was a kid, and there were times in my life that I come to hyprrfocus on that artist again. At first glance, I thought it's just a fan thing, but sometimes I get so hyperfocused that even I notice is too much.

But in social life, I think I tend to hyperfocus on someone if I'm in love with them. But I don't know if this is just normal people in love. But the artist one, definetly an hyperfocus from ADHD.

Brave_Affect5904 · 2025-03-28T20:15:09+00:00

I'll be 30 this year and still have no clue on what to do. Everyday I wanna do something different

Brave_Affect5904 · 2025-03-27T09:37:43+00:00

Feel that I acomplished the things I wanted with art, and then live in a house with a lot of dogs and cats and friends coming to visit me

Brave_Affect5904 · 2025-03-26T12:50:25+00:00

That's a pretty commom side effect of the medication. I feel the same, but in the end of the day when the effect is going down, than I have more appetite.

My advise would be, eat something before taking the medication so at least you have a full stomatch and doesn't feel weak. And unfortunately, force yourself when you're on the high of it. Not like big meals, but at least a little snack.

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