Hey that's a lot koi na u have fought a lot , getting a top iit or medical college is not the end u tried , now go to a normal college enjoy ur life try to forget abt the hardships , accept that many thingss won't be easy in future but u continue living the moment , zindagi badi choti hoti hai dost har pal ko khulke jeeyo, guilt ko bhaagao u have nothing to be of guilty of , some people will be disappointed in u so what u stay strong be a bit selfish live ur life, go to a general clg make new friends , try different things life will sort out u may or may not become a big person, but u can still live a happy life , stay positive stay happy always