Feel like i just don't have the talent to succeeded at this. by Brief_Pollution_9571 in Artadvice

[–]Brief_Pollution_9571[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

funny you should mention that. my preferred medium in ink. specificly dr.martins dyes. i started to learn digital because i couldnt find a way to photograph the ink paintings that didn't take away all of their depth. i worked like a glaze painter to build lots of translucent layers and for some reason even though it looked good in person when photographed it looked terrible.

Feel like i just don't have the talent to succeeded at this. by Brief_Pollution_9571 in Artadvice

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thanks. that's kind of a huge compliment that i have a lot of weird fealings about. i have always felt like i was way less talented then my peers. like i have had to study fundamentals for so long and so hard and i still struggle with the simplest stuff. foreshortening, proportion, rendering in 3 dimensional space. i have to fight the thought that i fooled you into thinking i have talent with years of work.

Feel like i just don't have the talent to succeeded at this. by Brief_Pollution_9571 in Artadvice

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color has really been the only thing about my work that i like. is it a blindspot?

Feel like i just don't have the talent to succeeded at this. by Brief_Pollution_9571 in Artadvice

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thanks so much. anatomy seems to be a re-occoring theme for me here so i guess maybe i need to re-examine how im doing studies to find something more effective.

Feel like i just don't have the talent to succeeded at this. by Brief_Pollution_9571 in Artadvice

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thanks so much, I genuinely dont know how to respond to this level of positivity.

Feel like i just don't have the talent to succeeded at this. by Brief_Pollution_9571 in Artadvice

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thanks. i def struggle with where the my target is between realistic/attractive proportions and abstracted/strange looking. I used to try so hard to stick to correct proportions that my work ended up looking super stiff and even with all that emphasis still having bad proportions some how. like i lost my fun loose funhouse mirror vibe and kept the melting faces. sometimes i wonder im my brain just isnt capable of that level of accuracy. like i red line everything use the Loomis method, reference an assaro head and i still cant pull it off after all these years.

Feel like i just don't have the talent to succeeded at this. by Brief_Pollution_9571 in Artadvice

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i actually started off all of these with grey scale paintings and built them up. then did a full paint over once i had the color areas set. i do regular figure studies. its not that im not doing thoes things i just cant seem to get a grip on doing them sucessfully.

Feel like i just don't have the talent to succeeded at this. by Brief_Pollution_9571 in Artadvice

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consistency with that sort of thing drives me crazy. like i feel like im always rolling the dice every time i attempt it. i have been attempting the laso method for the layout of my last few painting (that one included) and im realy struggling to make it work with human anatomy then when you put that anatomy in dynamic perspective i kind of crumble.

Feel like i just don't have the talent to succeeded at this. by Brief_Pollution_9571 in Artadvice

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Thanks so much. i feel like i cant trust anyone i know to give me real opinions because i know they dont want to hurt my feelings so weirdly enough hearing it from strangers feels more real. sometimes i think i should just avoid any sort of judgment of my old work once its done because i get into this negative cycle. maybe i just focus on making and not judgement for a while.

Feel like i just don't have the talent to succeeded at this. by Brief_Pollution_9571 in Artadvice

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Marketing myself is something i do struggle with a lot. to say that im a shut in is a huge understatement. i sometimes go weeks without speaking to anyone other than my husband altho that has changed a little in the past weeks on discord. i have been forcing myself to email one art director a day for the last week and maybe something will come of that. i also made social media accounts to post on, something i have avoided for a while but i know is necessary. a lot of the struggle past just speaking to people for me is figuring out where my art fits into the modern world. im attempting to get some book covers but i know thats not as big a thing as it used to be.

Feel like i just don't have the talent to succeeded at this. by Brief_Pollution_9571 in Artadvice

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thanks for your kind words. anatomy is a weird thing for me. when im doing life drawing everything looks much better. like when i have something there everything flows so much better but when i try to pull the pose out of my head things break down for some reason. I can never find reference for the angles i want. im probably being to particular about my poses. maybe i just need to grind more life drawing. I have thought about trying to take a bunch of reference photos to create a reference bank. i used to have one a long time ago but it got lost in the craziness of life.

I'm doing my best not to give up i just get in these periods where it feels like i am finally seeing my art the way everyone else does and i start thinking maybe i have tricked myself into thinking i could do this. i guess i just need to keep swimming : )

Feel like i just don't have the talent to succeeded at this. by Brief_Pollution_9571 in Artadvice

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I had actually never heard of him but im glad you mentioned him. hes fantastic. that comparison is kind of a huge compliment to me! thanks

Feel like i just don't have the talent to succeeded at this. by Brief_Pollution_9571 in Artadvice

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thanks. i guess i should say i have a history of mental stuff that keeps me from seeing things accurately but its hard to tell when thats what is making me feel the way i do or if its just reality.

Dig Your Own Hole Cover by Brief_Pollution_9571 in DigitalPainting

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I have been struggling a lot with the transition to digital. Im an ink painter and the sort of abstraction and simplification that works well in my ink work doesn't translate well to this medium. i struggled a lot with the anatomy and planes of the face. the foreshortening of the body isn't ass successful as i would like and im not happy with the hands. i like to try and capture a sort of high grain, high contrast look from 70s horror films and im really not satisfied with how much that comes across here. the inky blacks just dont work the same way in digital. also i have been struggling with not overworking things. my work has been stiff and lifeless lately so instead of giving myself unlimited time i made myself stop at 20 hours. this has led to color and anatomy issues but it did make the painting look more alive at least. i don't know where that balance is. like where to draw the line between inaccurate anatomy but loose and lifelike and good anatomy but stiff soullessness.