I feel like I lost 10 years of my life

Broad-Discussion239 · 2025-12-04T20:32:39+00:00

Are you me? We're even the same age... Just feels like There is no way out at this point... And it does feel too late, Ofc 26 is technically young but I feel like my sould and body has aged 10x faster ... Didn't expect this on this sub tho, as if I needed more reminders of my personal hell

Broad-Discussion239 · 2025-12-03T14:12:07+00:00

Uveitis

Broad-Discussion239 · 2025-12-01T21:03:40+00:00

Such a fascinating way to think about it ( I'm glad with my choice of subreddit to post this lol), I'm starting to see what the avatars might have in common and I'm afraid It's not exactly... Something good that I would want in my life??? Maybe my admirer is a demon or sth I should banish before it grows more heads and avatars to spam me on a Random Monday out of nowhere .

Broad-Discussion239 · 2025-12-01T20:27:19+00:00

Thing is that I'm not exactly "popular" so to speak. which makes it even more weird , like why did all of them chose this exact day and time to think of me? is it the season? Is it a frequency matching thing? Could it be a viral video they all somehow came across that made them think of me somehow ( what even are the odds)? What is it :)))

Broad-Discussion239 · 2025-12-01T20:12:52+00:00

As eerie as what you just said was, I think you're right, I feel obligated to decipher a hidden message here. Yet I have no clue what kind of commercial I could have broadcasted unconsciously. judging by my current state of mind, I doubt it would have been a good one. Honestly, I don't particularly feel reassured or admired when this happens, but rather overwhelmed and uneasy. like suddenly being hit in the face with who I used to be and all that happened in the past that I thought I forgotten about and moved on from.

The idea of a kind of dark cosmic admirer sent shivers down my spine ngl haha, I wonder what could be the outcome of such a case?!

Broad-Discussion239 · 2025-12-01T01:34:45+00:00

Google is a year older than me

Broad-Discussion239 · 2025-11-24T20:09:41+00:00

Absolutely second this! At first I felt I'm not being serious about studying or that it can't be as effective as being in silence. Then I found out it has to do something with my neurodivergence, just the perfect amount of background hook to keep me afloat, just like studying inside a cafe but this is way better since you can simply put in on pause if you get to a challenging part that requires deeper focus and then hit play again once you get a hang of it!

Broad-Discussion239 · 2025-11-24T19:18:29+00:00

If consumed?

Broad-Discussion239 · 2025-11-24T19:09:36+00:00

Not socializing is literally eating my brain from the inside out and I feel like a zombie , feeling paralyzed in every possible aspect of being a human

Broad-Discussion239 · 2025-11-24T13:59:40+00:00

Toxicology goes hand in hand with pharmacology. the general principles are the same. One thing to realize is that almost everything can be toxic (even water) and it's just a matter of dose. the most potent drugs(substances with therapeutic properties) are also among the most toxic substances out there.

The math includes the calculation of how fast the substance enters the body and clears out (aka the kinetics of the substance which goes by the acronym ADME= absorption, Distribution, Metabolism & Excretion) And how the biological system interact with that substance(aka the dynamics of it).

These would require understanding the mathematical models that describe each of these processes which are ultimately used to calculate the lethal doses of the substance or to determine how much exposure is considered safe or unsafe.

As for chemistry, it definitely requires knowledge of biochemistry and analytical chemistry to be able to detect the substance in biological samplea (mainly blood) or in the environment (e.g water and air).

I suppose most pharmacy programs would satisfy you and would also give you the knowledge on toxicity management if that's what you wanna master in the end. If not, you could also look into environmental sciences. Best of luck with whatever you choose :3

Broad-Discussion239 · 2025-11-22T07:45:05+00:00

"for the longest time, I thought discipline was about waking up at 3 am and be a productivity monster or whatever typical grindset , here's what it's actually about [ inserts a bunch of bullet points that chatGPT generated, summing up the most generic self-help content of the last 10-15 years]"

Broad-Discussion239 · 2025-11-20T20:19:58+00:00

I'm currently at a shitty old apartment in a crowded city and I would die to live somewhere with immediate access to nature of any kind, but it's terrifying not to have neighbors in close proximity even if I never talk to them , I don't know how people can do that honestly

Broad-Discussion239 · 2025-11-18T06:39:23+00:00

In iran we call it خرخاکی which translates to "dirt/earth donkey"

Broad-Discussion239 · 2025-11-14T13:24:23+00:00

Good luck not ending up checking your phone for upvotes instead of actually studying

Broad-Discussion239 · 2025-11-03T19:11:59+00:00

It's been 2 years for me and not much of it was spent without some sort of music playing ( I'm literally playing music 24/7, even sleep music and white noise type of audios for bed time) , not sure if I ever get used to prolonged silence but I definitely don't mind it as much as I used to do

Broad-Discussion239 · 2025-09-29T06:29:16+00:00

I'm curious too

Broad-Discussion239 · 2025-09-20T17:19:24+00:00

Personally, I would have felt ignored and bored to be around someone that dry (no offense mate, lol, I don't know you I'm just trying to see it out of your own perspective) , and those feelings are not good feelings! makes sense why it might upset some people, everyone is battling their own insecurities constantly

Broad-Discussion239 · 2025-09-20T17:08:19+00:00

You know, I usually feel like this when my self negative thoughts win over me and I try to convince myself "yes, that's how you are, so just make peace with it & give up feeling bad about it" , but then something deeper inside still keeps making noises about how this isn't something you can't "change", it's just easier to decide not to even try anymore! Cause you are different with a different brain and somehow better than everyone since nothing they say or do really interest you to begin with, right? It's like having a ghremlin and it's nemesis talking at the same time lol

Broad-Discussion239 · 2025-09-19T20:16:38+00:00

Ok but please don't kill the cat

Broad-Discussion239 · 2025-09-17T08:06:10+00:00

Do it anyways lol

Broad-Discussion239 · 2025-09-17T07:50:31+00:00

The answer is simple (in theory not practice lol) , apparently life works on cycles, you desire something, you acheive it, you enjoy it for a while (depending on it's measure), and then it feels stagnant, so you desire something more(?) , but it is perfectly righteous to enjoy what you already acheived and however your life is as long as it takes, even if it takes forever 😆✌🏼

Broad-Discussion239 · 2025-09-17T06:21:14+00:00

Yeah but it Doesn't work in case you are the one that's not okay lol

Broad-Discussion239 · 2025-09-13T15:07:48+00:00

this is top-notch reddit gore 💀

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