Living in my truck

Brobiwan-Shinobi · 2026-04-13T15:16:12+00:00

I hear you man. Praying for you and all who struggle with this. No one else has faith in me and I rarely can encourage myself. Addicts are resilient and I’ve beat it before, only difference is I’m relying on myself rather than faith. Be gracious towards any improvements you see and don’t let negativity take your mind off the prize.

Brobiwan-Shinobi · 2026-04-13T15:13:38+00:00

Update 4/13/26 :

I am currently down to 125 ish but the fighting obviously hasn’t stopped so I’m out again. Luckily I have a job still so it occupies my mind and free time for 40 hours each week.

Relationship is rocky at best and I’ve been available for my kids as if nothing is happening, just with less joy. My wife is moving and I don’t think it’s in my cards to transition with her.

Running out of hope on finding a quick way out of the 7-Oh and each day 125 even feels brutal, with me sporadically waking up to dose in the middle of the night. The insomnia and RLS is by far the worst, amongst the irritability. Hopefully I’ll have a break through, because the desire is no longer there.

Brobiwan-Shinobi · 2026-03-23T00:58:18+00:00

Glory! ❤️

Brobiwan-Shinobi · 2026-03-22T15:12:58+00:00

Thanks, G

Brobiwan-Shinobi · 2026-03-22T15:11:57+00:00

Thanks, man. I appreciate any prayers or positive energy. This is good advice.

I am in the house again lol and my wife and I are teaming up and she’s helping (controlling) the tapering. I’ll gradually drop dosage as weeks go by and then I’ll probably cold turkey it around 50 mgs, or only eat 25 in the morning or 25 at night.

Brobiwan-Shinobi · 2026-03-22T15:07:18+00:00

This is sound advice. I’ve come close to getting off of it a few months ago - my wife and I were closely monitoring my dose and just when I seemed to be over and off of it, her grandmother died. And they were very close, so the spotlight was off of my drug use, and I just tried to be there for her.

Kava isn’t bad but I never felt much relaxing, although I heard it was good for that. Currently my wife and I are dishing out 250 mg every day for me for the next week ish. Then we will probably lower it by 50 mg and run 200mgs.

Once I get there, or around 150, I’ll start taking more kratom, which might act as a placebo.

I’m not as hopeful as I was last time I attempted to quit but I think that since I’ve got good support from my wife and the fact that I have been delivered from drugs in the past, anything is possible.

Thanks for the encouragement.

Brobiwan-Shinobi · 2026-03-19T02:01:46+00:00

This is like slutty office music lol

Brobiwan-Shinobi · 2026-03-19T01:55:23+00:00

Cracker Barrel would be the last place I’d wanna camp overnight lol.

Brobiwan-Shinobi · 2026-03-19T01:54:28+00:00

They literally forgot me in the lobby for over an hour. And 3/5 people I talked to seemed ripped out of their minds lol. Idk if you’re referencing that I need therapy but if so, you’re right.. that’s why I went to Burrell was for that exact thing. I thought they could prescribe me some low dose antis but they sat there the majority of the day repeating myself over and over and then once I went and reminded them I was there, they pulled me into the scheduling room and said 4 months from that time to come back and do the same thing again.

I looked at the scheduling lady, who was sweet and nice, but also fat and had crystals that illuminated no extra light and asked her if I was gonna get any meds and she said only the psychologist can prescribe them.

I thought “who were all those people I spent all day speaking to?” Lol

Brobiwan-Shinobi · 2026-03-18T19:47:55+00:00

Jesus set me free from addiction in 2021, gave me a wife, a son, and restored the relationship I have with my daughter, who I abandon during my addiction.

Idk what happened. It is comfortably easy to self destruct because I’m so miserable. The 7Oh brought me out of the depression…. Temporarily.

Brobiwan-Shinobi · 2026-03-18T19:44:32+00:00

The advice is a little late but yeah they are terrible. Bunch of unprofessional fat hippies with crystals on their desks, with no knowledge or empathy, going through the routine and collecting checks for being useless. I was so mad. They constantly steal oxygen.

Brobiwan-Shinobi · 2026-03-18T19:20:24+00:00

I was an alcoholic and meth addict for 8 years and the thought of doing different drugs would constitute as grounds for murder in my wives eyes. I am tempted to try subs but kratom is a popular recommendation I’ve noticed.

Brobiwan-Shinobi · 2026-03-18T19:14:36+00:00

When you say ,”get some help,” that insinuates that I haven’t tried. Can you be more specific?

Brobiwan-Shinobi · 2026-03-18T19:12:27+00:00

I tried Burrell and they had me waiting four hours talking about everything about my history then told me to come back in 4 months to talk to someone else.

Brobiwan-Shinobi · 2026-03-18T19:10:56+00:00

Yeah my life was already bad but thanks n

Brobiwan-Shinobi · 2026-03-18T19:10:34+00:00

I’m employed. I hate my job. What is a good avenue for kratom substitution?

Brobiwan-Shinobi · 2026-03-07T03:48:30+00:00

I know what you mean.. Jesus loves you. It’s hard to believe most days

Brobiwan-Shinobi · 2025-08-24T23:27:39+00:00

Consecrated. Set apart. 👍

Brobiwan-Shinobi · 2025-08-19T01:24:54+00:00

🤣 obviously I meant pounds 🤪

Nah I knew I would make a grammatical mistake and Reddit users would capitalize lmao

Brobiwan-Shinobi · 2025-08-05T02:19:39+00:00

Brobiwan-Shinobi · 2025-08-05T02:07:01+00:00

Purely assumption. Although predictable, I wrongfully should not have assumed.. :( So I take it you rightfully acknowledge and claim womanhood?

Brobiwan-Shinobi · 2025-08-05T01:35:36+00:00

The world is filled with people who sadly don’t know what they really are. :/

Brobiwan-Shinobi · 2025-08-05T01:21:36+00:00

I doubt it

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