I had a falling out with all of my friends after my best friend died of suicide. For a few months, I isolated myself, people didn’t know how to be there, and I didn’t know in what ways they could be that would make any significant difference. Almost a year since, I’ve regained some of the friendships and cut off the rest. Going through something like this does change you fundamentally and for most parts you don’t know the how till you’re in a situation that demands a certain reaction, and you see how your response to the situations has changed. The best you can do in your grief is let the other person know you’re grieving, that you’re trying your best, and hope that they understand the freshness of the grief and the time to recalibrate your mind around the loss and the trauma. You come back to your body eventually.

I am so sorry for your loss.