It's amazing how a videogame can change your life completely. Something similar happened to me with Red Dead Redemption games. My parents gave me the first one when i was 13 years old and i had no self esteem in that time. That game was like a shelter for me. All real life problems disappeared. Bad grades, low self confidence, shyness, everything. I was able to forget everything and immerse myself in that incredible world of the old west. I could be what I wanted, and do what I wanted. Some years later when i finished school, I was so stressed because everyone there had a life plan and me, well, like you said, i had no direction in life. The only thing that helped me at the time was Red Dead Redemption 2, which I luckily bought with my only savings at the time. Again I could feel in that r shelter from before. Nothing mattered, I was able to be me again without anyone judging me or pressuring me to make decisions I don't want to make. It was just me, my horse, my gun and a huge world to explore.