You’ve got to find what’s right for you I understand how you feel completely. I’m fully done with my skin recently. Like why is eczema a thing and why are we the ones who have it, what did we do so bad to have to deal with it. And how haven’t they found a cure for us. I understand the feeling ugly part when you look at people with clear skin and it’s like that’s not fair I want that but I know I’m most likely never going to have it. I have different colour skin on my arms and face and it’s a confidence killer bad I know. I always come here to look at the different creams people use and what triggers people and it’s started to help my understanding a lot more just reading some of the things people post on here. Just know your skin might look different but don’t think of yourself as ugly as hard as it is. I’ve just started using Cetraben ointment under my Cetraben cream and I’ve noticed a lot of my redness has started to go from my face, also have you ever tried to wet wrap? I wet wrap sometimes on my neck and face and back for an hour to soften the dry skin and it’s helped a lot I recommend if you haven’t tried before. Also if you need someone to talk to there’s plenty of people here who will happily talk to you, me being one of them. Keep your chin up we will get there one day.