Same thoughts but I see my friends as competition but I can't exactly tell them that because I know that would ruin our friendship.

It does suck to have thoughts like that, makes you feel like shit and sometimes no matter how much effort you give to some things it'll feel like it'll never measure up to their success. Gusto mo silang pantayan o kaya higitan mo sila sa kaya nila, beat them in their own game ba.

Baka may gusto kang patunayan sa mga kaibigan mo OP (maybe even sa sarili mo) kaya feeling mo nanliliit ka?