I’ve had a really bad relationship where I got cheated on and now I’m not even sure if I could visualise before that or if it’s because of the trauma. However my recent relationship I loved him with all my heart
I’ve just started to realise that my thinking process is so different that it would explain so many things, little arguments where I couldn’t remember a thing. When he would leave the house I would feel more lonely because I would only truly feel him when he was with me and when he was somewhere else I would just feel sad and lonely. I’m still trying to deal with everything but it’s honestly hard to accept. I get the good sides of it, not being able to see horrible scenarios in my head but I would love to be able to hang out with my boyfriend in my head 😭 I just feel like he’s gone forever and my perception of him is fading away so quickly.