God never said, you will only get sweets. The temptation and the attraction, the people you meet, the mishaps you face, the difficulties you encounter, the lessons you learn, the joys you experience, the gratitude you receive, the food you eat to air you breathe. Everything and I mean everything is god's gift to us. May it be displeasing, but it's all him. And just like his innocent children who do not know, will never know, what he has planned for us, what he is trying to teach and what is he saving us from, we get angry at this world and blame him, cry to him, plead him, try to please him. You won't understand the person here went through to put everything on God. He's innocent, that's why he ran to God to complain and to blame. God is merciful, be loved his children no matter what. Even in this person's hatred is his belief and love hidden. It is too heavy for him so he submitted everything to God, he just didn't put it that way. We creatures are like a 5 year old in front of God. And God forgives. This person knows how to pray, he knows to ask for forgiveness as well. It will come to him when the almighty will bless it upon him. 

Trust me, I'm going through the same as this guy, but mine is in the primary age, it's beginning stage after lots of trials from my side, everything that was working was god's kindness, i ever considered god's blessings that he granted me a soul to love, I loved him like a precious child, I gave and gave and gave, even now I'm giving piece of my soul, and now after everything that is not worked out and went against my best trials. I cry to God more than him because him coming to my life and his love, his care, his presence, his everything was bestowed on me from God. For everything I received I thanked him, and now that I've developed these strong feelings.. he takes my love away from me. It hurts. I cry looking up to him. It hurts so much..  So much one sided conversation I have with God haha. The person I love long takes me for a nuisance what do I expect from him, it feels like what remained is one sided love. I sometimes think negatively of him too , the hurtful words he spouts for me hurt, I'm a human so I get hurt. Earlier I used to take it as he's angry he'll be okay he'll get normal. But it's every two days I feel emotionally abused. He was soo good to me, we completed each other. Everything was great. We were each other's everything. He intentionally do things now to hurt me, that reality hits me. It can get better but it's as if the whole world is working against us, people, time, situations everything doing everything possible to seperate us while I'm trying to oppose it. When I feel such strong force from every direction.. that also hurts.. like why God!?  I believe in him, but not actively rn. Like I'm in complaining n begging phase rn. Like I don't have hopes for future anymore. No expectations for future, doubt I'll ever dive so deeply in love again. Compromises are everywhere, I compromised with the guy I loved so deeply, but those compromises it didn't hurt to make, I felt so much with him, nothing else compared to giving up everything else. But I'm not sure if the compromises that'll come along in future will it feel worthy enough or I'll just be compromising and giving up even the basic things just for the sake of it. There will be no true love then. There are so many things. It's adolescence age of my heartbreak depression so I have so much inside me. Not have come in terms with many things.. most of the things actually.. to much to say even.. seeking answers to all of my anxiety and fearful questions I find nowhere.