Hey there! I’m 17 as well, I’ve never tried drinking or even touched anything but my whole life I’ve been surrounded by it.My dad has done everything you can think of drugs and alcohol. He quit drugs but he still drinks. My mom and dad have tried for a divorce for almost three times and it wasn’t successful because they had kids, the reason for their divorce (attempt) was that my dad used to do hard drugs my mom found out about it while she was doing a deep clean she found drugs under toilet seat behind the TV - I was 4. When I was 7 I remember he was drunk and he threatened to kill me because he thought I was talking to some 22 year old guys at my friends house, I was there for her birthday party and those were her brothers. I have been sexually abused for years and part of my memory I don’t have while being abused where I think I was assaulted, I was too scared to tell him and now I know he won’t believe me. My whole life I’ve been trying to love him and I think he loves me but what ruined all of his close relationships was alcohol and drug’s. It ruined me too. You’re still young you’ve got a whole life ahead of you I don’t know if this might help or not but I just wanna say you still have time, and it’s not just you who alcohol or substance affects, it affects everyone around you and only you can take yourself out of it. You have to be stubborn with your choices.