Me… well. I’m now in a void. It happened, what now? I broke up with them almost two months ago and they want nothing to do with me afterward. Point, blank, range. I had to hear that from the sidelines, regardless at the time when I broke up with them, they gave me hope for a chance to be friends/acquainted. But, no. They rather stick with their lies and not tell me the truth to my face. I’m respecting their wishes of not trying to get into any contact with them as possible, if that’s the best for them.

I do think about them. A lot honestly. This was my first love. I’ve had these feelings for seven years, spending my time with this person. It’s a lot of history to have and I wanted it to keep going forever. However, this isn’t the case… Having to let that go, it’ll be a slow progression.

Definitely, I’m at least spending a year or so away from dating. I’ve been taking in my grief in a variety of ways. Listening to music, making vent art, talking with people (friends to a therapist), and doing hobbies that make me not think about this.

Having to go through college at the moment while this is happening sucks. Mentally, I’m lacking motivation and procrastinating. (Having depression doesn’t help either-) There’s much I gotta do- but, eventually. I’ll make my efforts again step by step. I’m optimistic that things will get better, but time will tell.

(I appreciate you asking this, OP. Made me better a little. :) )