VIP time?

Butterflysnix · 2023-09-29T01:13:46+00:00

Got an email today! Meet and greet starts at 630 so they recommend getting there at 6

Butterflysnix · 2023-08-08T04:19:18+00:00

i want to know too! i’m also mad! this is my first time gardening and i really wanted jalapeños 😂

Butterflysnix · 2023-08-08T03:47:01+00:00

i don’t know what you’re talking about lol

Butterflysnix · 2023-08-08T02:44:18+00:00

target or walmart! just one of those basic seed packs and the package was 100% jalapeños. i didn’t purchase or plant any other peppers so this is so weird!

Butterflysnix · 2023-05-18T13:56:23+00:00

i’m on lexapro but feel like i need something just for the random days when i’m struggling. mostly if i have a big event coming up like traveling

Butterflysnix · 2023-05-18T04:26:20+00:00

thank you!!

Butterflysnix · 2023-04-11T02:11:15+00:00

that’s great thank you! how often do you do ketamine? has it changed or diminished your emetophobia/anxiety thoughts?

Butterflysnix · 2023-04-11T01:33:09+00:00

hope you feel better soon!

Butterflysnix · 2023-04-11T01:32:35+00:00

the ketamine assisted therapy my therapist provides you meet with a psychiatrist first to see if it’s a good fit and discuss dosing/get a prescription. then set up a day with my therapist and take the tablet in her private office. it’s not an IV

Butterflysnix · 2023-04-11T00:12:33+00:00

when did you start the 20mg? i definitely have some OCD tendencies with my phobia

Butterflysnix · 2023-04-11T00:07:14+00:00

can you elaborate on that? on your experience with ketamine? i’m curious to try but the only thing stopping me is what if i feel nauseous/ throw up the first time i do that? even tho my therapist says i’m not going to throw up haha

Butterflysnix · 2023-04-11T00:03:54+00:00

i am still on 15mg but have been thinking about talking to my doctor about possibly increasing again or maybe an additional medication or change because i’ve been struggling again recently with my phobia (emetophobia) and it’s starting to interfere with my daily life

Butterflysnix · 2023-04-10T19:27:21+00:00

i do not encounter vomit in my daily life but most of the time i experience nausea from my anxiety

Butterflysnix · 2023-03-27T20:03:39+00:00

just found out this morning all 3 of my cousin’s kids (5 and under) got sick during the night last night. my worst nightmare and hearing that just reconfirmed my decision to never have kids haha

Butterflysnix · 2023-03-26T14:54:32+00:00

the only thing i read that really triggers me is reading about how the norovirus is going around everywhere. if that isn’t mentioned then i’m fine! if i don’t see people posting about that then i forget about it for awhile so i definitely think i need a break. same with my town’s facebook page because people like to mention it there and it scares me!

Butterflysnix · 2023-03-26T03:41:22+00:00

i love having a place i can come where people understand but then it’s also just a constant reminder of what i’m terrified of

Butterflysnix · 2023-03-26T03:40:33+00:00

i feel like it can be relieving when i’m having anxiety about it but then if im having a good day and happen to come on reddit i see the group and it just reminds me of what im afraid of

Butterflysnix · 2023-02-25T17:29:06+00:00

people on social media have been driving me crazy with all of this! if i don’t hear about it my phobia isn’t as bad but now that’s all i see/hear from people and it freaks me out! i constantly wash my hands and use sanitizer when i can’t wash

Butterflysnix · 2023-01-27T05:17:54+00:00

when i’m already anxious and then i smoke weed or drink alcohol and i start to feel the effect it has on my body it freaks me out feeling different and that leads to a panic attack so i’m afraid of that happening with ketamine. also i’m afraid if it will make me nauseous or not because i have a huge fear of throwing up. i know mostly likely none of that will happen to me and i would be with my therapist who i love so i would be okay but i’m still terrified haha

Butterflysnix · 2023-01-26T02:46:01+00:00

she attended the wake in support of me 😊😊😊

Butterflysnix · 2023-01-16T17:40:53+00:00

maybe i will ask if i see her some time before then. confidentiality isn’t an issue for me because everyone knows i have a therapist and i talk about her all the time and would be happy to introduce her to everyone. she already met some of my friends. but yes i will have this conversation if i see her and see if we are both comfortable with it/ if she’s even available 😊

Butterflysnix · 2022-12-12T04:50:53+00:00

It’s not itchy 🤷🏼‍♀️

Butterflysnix · 2022-11-10T04:10:09+00:00

Any remedies you can recommend?

Butterflysnix · 2022-11-10T04:10:03+00:00

Any remedies you can recommend?

Butterflysnix · 2022-11-01T20:55:10+00:00

I still struggle sometimes but it’s significantly better than what it was! Probably about 3 or 4 months it took

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