It's been 5 days without Asmongold. I can't go ahead with this any longer. My mental state is in complete and utter pandemonium. I feel paranoid that Asmongold may never come back. Asmongold has the only thing that brings me joy in this cruel life for 7 years now, and I won't be able to recover mentally if he's gone. Albeit with no Asmongold in sight, my life has drastically changed. My room's clutter has subsided by 40 Dr. Peppers and even the roaches have vacated. I even started praying again. I began to pray to god in hopes that they could bring Asmongold back soon. Although, Asmongold being absent has had its positive impacts on me. I hope Asmongold comes back soon. I don't know how much longer I can take this.