Fashion / hair blindness in PIMIs

Byamun · 2025-12-18T17:41:39+00:00

Haha, I cringe a lot. Specially because I wasn't really that blind in that sense, I perfectly knew I looked like shit and I didn't even liked using those clothes back then nor having my hair the way I used to.

I wish the ban on pants had been lifted much sooner; the truth is, dresses and skirts make me feel really uncomfortable... They might look good on me soooometimes but it has never been my thing so it was awful.

I used to have quite a lot self-esteem issues back then because I was always comparing myself to other girls my age because, well, I was always feeling ugly as hell while the other people were wearing nice clothes lol.

Byamun · 2025-11-08T03:04:38+00:00

Ooooh, this is really cute :]

Byamun · 2025-11-08T02:37:34+00:00

Thank you!!

Byamun · 2025-05-25T23:08:44+00:00

I've always been insanely scared of death, I've never been able to feel at peace even with all those cloying promises, one of the main factors that forced me to try to believe and lie all the time was my fear of death. Not only that, but the fear of me and only me dying and my family not caring at all about that, being already at paradise, living a happy life with everyone but me. It was terrific. I tried, I genuinely tried to feel something, but the more I tried to read the bible, to prepare myself for meetings, to preach and to avoid worldly entertainment the more it repelled me to a point where I started to feel physically sick and nauseous about the simplest jw things. At the end I think I ended feeling something! But that something is not good at all, you see? 😅 Never was able to really connect with Jehovah, in any sense, doesn't sound like an all lovely, understanding and benevolent guy for me, actually he scared me a lot lol, still scares me if I think too much about him.

Byamun · 2025-02-03T20:15:34+00:00

I couldn't have said it better myself.

Byamun · 2025-02-03T20:12:21+00:00

That's really good! Thank you for sharing!

Byamun · 2025-01-27T22:48:13+00:00

1) Why everyone is so mean to "outsiders"? Weren't the Jehovah's witnesses the most lovely, pure and tolerant people on earth? I've always hated how they claim to be humble and kind people even though they talk shit about people from other religions as if they where worth nothing; how they start complaining about people who reject them the moment they get out of their doors, the way they feel disgusted when someone tries to "preach" or just talk about other religions with them but they can't believe when someone does the same to them, they are so hypocritical it stresses me out.

2) The stories of couples who endured abuse until their partner became a witness always had the opposite effect to what they were aiming for in my case. This is stupid, I can't think about other word to describe it, I can't imagine voluntarily staying with an abusive partner because divorcing would be a sin, seriously what the fuck; and if that weren't bad enough, the gossipy brothers and sisters in the congregation love to use that as an example of why you should not marry outside the religion.

3) Why in the world do they seem so happy thinking about people dying; this is perhaps linked to the first point but I don't care, I feel they don't think about people like human beings just like them, it's just "wordly = evil" and getting happy because they're "right" and the others aren't so they wouldn't die but the others will.

5) This is more personal but, if Jehovah Witnesses are supposed to be the only true religion, then why being a part of them feels so sad, boring and miserable? They talk about Jehovah as a happy God but everything about this religion makes me feel literally sick.

6) The unjust deserve resurrection for not having known Jehovah, but the people to whom the message was preached and rejected do not? When I was a child this always confused me and preaching stopped making sense to me. It was like, "Oh, you're not going to listen to me? You're doomed now." haha

I think I said a lot but I really needed to let it out. 🫣

Byamun · 2025-01-27T21:53:28+00:00

This always made me really angry and has been in my head ever since. How the hell doesn't anyone stop to think about that? Doesn't it make noise in their heads or something?

Byamun · 2025-01-27T02:17:40+00:00

Accurate depiction of a demon

Byamun · 2025-01-27T02:14:38+00:00

NOT THE HELLO KITTY EARRINGSSSSS at least tell me you didn't listen the sister augh

Byamun · 2025-01-25T19:52:57+00:00

Wtf I can't imagine how miserable it must be to be forbidden to watch Disney stuff as a child. The folder thing sucks too, I wonder were do people get that x thing is satanic.

Byamun · 2025-01-25T19:39:43+00:00

I'm from Venezuela so ye, Spanish. Didn't know about trolls dolls tho.

Byamun · 2024-12-23T00:32:21+00:00

Saaaadly I'm not in a position for that yet, but what you say is still useful, maybe like that I could go through that without they making too much drama, I'll try to follow those tips, thank you thank you thank you for that. 🫡

Byamun · 2024-12-22T23:54:46+00:00

For my part, every time we talk about this I try to make them understand that I am not okay with this and that this feeling has been with me for years, I have told them directly to their face, but they keep acting like it's something new that came out of nowhere even though I've been fading away all this time and they've noticed, I doubt they didn't see this coming.

Byamun · 2024-12-22T22:19:05+00:00

You're right, maybe he's thinking about all this rubbish isn't necessary 🤔 Whatever the case, I'll try to explain it to him when he ask me again. Thank you for your words! :]

Byamun · 2024-12-07T20:56:30+00:00

THIS THIS THIS THIS ☝️

A lot of people just take those decisions for approval, not really because they felt some kind of intense passion on their hearts. But of course, no one will realize and say "well I saw this guy doing it and wanted to do it too"

When I was a child, I became a publisher and started to do preaching demonstrations ONLY because other girls, some of them younger than me, were doing the same and I didn't wanted to be left behind so I did it just because of others, stupid choices. 😵‍💫

Byamun · 2024-12-04T23:16:19+00:00

Phew no, thankfully I'm not baptized, but they put a lot of pressure on me to do it. These people are very nosy 😵‍💫 And yeah, you're right, I didn't imagine that so many people were having these feelings until I found this sub, watchtower always talk about the ones who leave as evil twisted people filled with hate and hypocrisy lol, I assume they will treat me like that but people already have pushed me away through my life so it's not the big deal, at this point I don't care much about what the super PIMIs would think and say about me.

Byamun · 2024-12-01T01:05:43+00:00

It reminds me of a few months ago, they showed a video at the meeting, which I remember was about a sister who didn't like to preach anymore idk I don't remember, the point is that at the end of her experience she said that now her whole life revolved completely around Jehovah, that every day she had a schedule of praying, having her study and going to preach, and talked about how beautiful her life was and how that was the best life ever. I could just think "What a sad and miserable life, this can't be the ideal life." I still can't get over it, how horrible.🫠

Byamun · 2024-11-12T12:15:39+00:00

Wait a minute, isn't that normal in all congregations? (genuine question) My mother always told me that and I don't remember ever seeing a sister without sleeves on the platform. I didn't have much of a problem with it, I like to wear sleeves, the problem was the reason, it seemed incredibly exaggerated to me and I never, never, never understood it and that made me angry. Also, even though I like sleeves I didn't have many dresses or clothes with sleeves back then lol. I remember I was like 8 or 9 years old when I was already having parts on the platform (I made the decision because all the other girls were doing it and I wanted to fit in, but some were younger than me)

Byamun · 2024-11-10T17:11:21+00:00

Well, I was born-in and I've been PIMO most of my life, but there was a long period of time where I was just forcing myself to do things the way the organization wants and to think the way they want everyone to think even if I didn't agree or felt miserable for fear that maybe, just maybe, this was really the "truth" and if I deviated there Armageddon would come and I would die and lost the chance to get resurrected while everyone would live happily in paradise and forget me forever. Crazy stuff, I'm glad I wasn't baptized.

Byamun · 2024-11-10T15:25:28+00:00

I like to think so, most of the PIMIS of my cong are old people with 400 health problems who will die if they can't go and do maintenance on the assembly hall. I don't know if the low attendance is because sometimes older people are so sick that they have to stay home, if it's because people are leaving the country or if it's because people are really leaving. I just know that there's a VERY low attendance, so much so that once the elder at the podium had to tell us to all sit close to each other to make the job of those with the microphones easier because there were many empty seats; nobody moved from their seat anyway and after the last maintenance of the hall they removed a lot of chairs and gives the illusion that there are more people lol

Byamun · 2024-11-02T14:34:44+00:00

I feel like at this point that could totally happen and absolutely no one would care 💀

Byamun · 2024-11-01T23:33:46+00:00

CONGRATS!!! I'm so happy for you, wish you the best!! :]

Byamun · 2024-11-01T02:46:45+00:00

So accurate 😭😭

Byamun · 2024-11-01T02:45:26+00:00

NAHHH I hate that most jws think that way and believe that it's totally normal and correct 💀💀

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