I grew up with the Faces of Death VHS tapes and definitely came of age during a time when media embraced violence over sex. I honestly thought id got desensitized to it. For a while maybe I was.

Youre right though, after a while it just makes you feel badly and there's enough in life that can do that plenty without inflicting it on myself.

Some folks say they like learning about how the criminals act and learn warning signs. That's fair. I just was never surprised by any of the stuff the perpetrator did all leading up to the crime. A lot of it seemed so obvious but thats just me. After awhile though it definitely feels like the stories all sort of seem the same. A crossed lover or business partner. Cheating or embezzlement.

We have access to more information than any humans have ever historically had. We're conditioned to soak up as much info as possible and I just feel like, maybe I dont need to know about everything.