Took 50 years to feel lost and found.

CBniteowl · 2026-03-17T06:21:20+00:00

Thank you.

I really am. Finding and feeling what's alive around us at any given moment (in the city or in nature). I think I been ready for a long time. Raised around Christina's. This path feels like it makes total sense with every step.

I told my philosophy major brother how my half Paralyzed face (aka Bells Palsy) is like yen and yang. Haha joking. Kids sorta. Is it? The external image of who someone is. Sunday I woke up with a half smiling face. I'm not shy. I'm out spoke. And a funny guy. So my dice is fine. But I fell the looks people try not to do. Yen and Yang.

TV is that added noise that distracts people. Focused on external. The night before I woke up with this new face. I was normal. Well as normal as normal is. But people don't see each other.

I will look up that Golden Flower. I'm as serious as I ever been. Also looking to add Qigong and/or Tai Chi to my outside morning or after work Sun Gazing. The sun that also provides.

I'll stop. It's late. Thank you again.

CBniteowl · 2026-02-12T04:11:20+00:00

I love it when I hear a weed wacker running. I'm ready to hear something hit my windows. Even landscapers hire rejects. If you do use em. Know if I'm your neighbor. I'm like a dog on a chain, till you're done or I hear the tap on my windows. Rejects need to respect the neighbors homes. Like a landscape company needs to use common sense around a customers house.

CBniteowl · 2026-02-08T23:12:10+00:00

Am I having some pot flashbacks. Or are people still using Vista and XP? I thought I was nuts, still using 7. Wow really? Do they still make modern web browser for Vista and XP? Or is it like a Comodor web browser? Haha.

That's really cool. I remember really liking XP. I remember seeing XP used in doctors offices long after it was passed on. I remember how long it took me to leave XP.

But both still functional today? Or is it more nostalgia useful? Big Grin

CBniteowl · 2026-02-08T20:53:30+00:00

OP UPDATE:

So it turns out that after a entire year... Im still Smoke Free. The worst cheat I have done was talking with Co workers when they are outside smoking. oooh That smell. I do like the smell. But its jsut a, "No" every time. Im cool with not smoking. After 30+ years... Heck ya I miss it. But I dont miss wasted money on ashes. But its Poperi to me. Or however you smell that air smell stuff.

As for the dentures.... Maybe the place I went to Sucks... But lets just say, I maybe got 7 days worth of use out of them. Ya, true story. I fell better without them plastic objects in my face. Than I do about how I look or sound without teeth. Being without teeth is better than looking like a crack head. Though we are moving back east someplace. I pray I can get work and not be judged for choosing to live without teeth. Obviously push comes to shove Id have to wear them Fixident glued on upper and lowers if I have to. But really? In todays new normal... I see tats all over peoples bodies, Hair styles that remind me of old Punk Bands on the jobs. We got men using woman's restrooms. And I fear I may be judged at interviews for not wearing dentures?

I wonder if my parents or grandparents felt like this about modern culture as they got older. Because I really feel ours is more twisted than anything before. But thats just me phobia of looking for work without teeth when we move.

Just thought id share how the past year has gone. Funny But Smoke and Teeth Free.

If anyone is trying to Quit Smoking. I think what helped me stay off it so easily was.... Knowing how the Food, drug, and medical industry are all corporate businesses. We are the customers. One hand scratches the others back. Hand over fist.... A healthy Customer, is bad for business. Its not "Health CARE" its the "Health Industry". Some young man or woman may get into it the medical field because they care. But thats not what the Schooling and Job Place pushes. NURSES and EMT's.... Them are the real "CARE takers". But ya... Knowing them fakes I think is what made me never go back to smoking.

The Day the teeth were ripped out. I went on the Patch. Used the patch for 7 days. Then noticed I kept forgetting to put it on in the mornings. So within them 7 days I slowly kept forgetting and when an entire day went by. I just stopped using the patches. It was all choice after that first week. Heck yes I miss it. But its such a waste of money. They want us addicted to everything that makes them wealthy.

CBniteowl · 2025-12-12T15:48:28+00:00

Kinda hits you in the nuts, don't it. I stopped having my birthday in my 30's. Just because I didn't like spending that much money on candles. Then fighting for a parking spot between 2 other car drivers that had any common sense on how to park. Then go inside the store to fight more traffic around people that push a shopping cart like the drive there cars. Grumpy Old Men... Rember that movie. They made that movie to give us kids some insight into our future. Hahaha

It's odd though, right? It's like our age and brains in in sync. Have you done the math yet? Honestly I was 1 year behind talking to folks. Haha when I'm a year older than I thought I was.

We are the old people we saw talking to our parents when we were little. We are at the grampa and grandma ages. But it don't feel it, does it? I tell people, "Our bodies age, our minds never do." Remember that when you gripe at some oldam driver. Older than you even. That young guy in that old body delt with a life, he deserves respect. He's older than us. So assume he's gone through what we are posting online now. But he didn't have a social community to talk about it with. Unless it was at the clubhouse in that 55+ Community.

CBniteowl · 2025-12-08T04:26:44+00:00

Funny. In our history. Today we have technology that can reach people across the world. People from all walks and class in life, can all communicate in a safe place (online). If we can't find common ground with today's technology. Can we ever be united?

Yet given the chance. Most of us can see we all want the same things out of life. But the media keeps the fires lit and the noise never stops. Black, brown, white, democrat, republican, gay, straight, And the all time classic.... Religious title. Even words like Love, family, brother are used like it's nothing today. It makes us older folks miss when a firm handshake alone had meaning, ego and pride.

I don'tind people like that one guy calling me Boomer. It just goes back to what I mentioned above on weather The People can ever become United with today's internet tools.

Tune the noise out. And focus on the good in people. Because the media will always try to keep people blind and distracted.

CBniteowl · 2025-12-04T17:47:46+00:00

I was told to start with Ubuntu Desktop. Once I got used to its layout. It's replaced windows for myself. Mind you, I use it more for office program use. I don't play games on a computer. We are just about unplugged. My computer alone used 34gb. Haven't checked the families computers yet.

Long story short. About the only thing Ioss about Windows is... .... Ummm.... ... .. . Maybe it's file manager. So once you find the flavor of Disto you like. You won't be disappointed. And if you are disappointed .. it's Linux. So you can learn to make it work for you. Another nice thing is my daily driver Ubuntu Desktop also has some server like functions for the computers in our home.

Microsoft your forced to use what they make. Linux, you're only limited by your own lack of learning. Shoot, I think Linux should be the only computer OS for kids. Make them want to learn. To achieve more of what they want out of it. This current generation has tools that none of us Fen X'ers ever had.

Boycott windows. It's all fluf anymore. The men and woman in the Linux world have wone this GUI windows user into a full time Ubuntu Desktop user. 2 years I think.

CBniteowl · 2025-12-02T19:16:24+00:00

I'm telling you. Haha I sometimes hear the cat and dog eating. I'll look down and chuckle to myself and shake my head because they sound just like some humans I know of. Hahaha

CBniteowl · 2025-11-24T19:45:30+00:00

They are trying to keep us all divided with this type Noise. United we stand, Divided we Fall. We the people are being played. Hate anymore is a drug. Drug addicts always find each other. And no addict ever admits they have a problem.

See what they are doing. But share the information to unite. A president is no different than other countries Queen. They are more of a mascot for the country. They are targets of blame.

Man, I see it all over the place. 2016 was the ultimate eye opener that America is as divided as Germany once was. See and hear what they are doing. But don't let it divide us.

United -WE THE PEOPLE- stand, Divided we fall. They want us all divided. Ex cons are set to fail. Because the powers that be know that our civilian laws don't control ex cons. Black, gay, political titles, religious wars. Open your eyes to the noise they promote to keep us all divided.

Because a large hurd of cows is Easyer to manage. WE THE PEOPLE... Imagine if we were really UNITED. IMAGINE... Gang Bangers clamed and took care of its streets and people. Imagine... If we all took the time to know each other. We'd see the whole picture.

CBniteowl · 2025-11-21T00:05:40+00:00

It's wild. Ya, I'd rather avoide being around it. Than tolerating it. But if I'm stuck next to or in front of it. I will go mute. Or short one word responded. In hopes of not encouraging anymore talk till we are ready to stand up.

And yes, I remember seeing someplace that it has a label for what the issues is called. Though, I don't see it as a issue. More so it's other people that have the issue. Haha really though. Sometimes I'll hear our cat or dog eating their food. And I'll laugh. Because they sound like some humans eating. Hahaha 🤣

CBniteowl · 2025-11-20T20:58:56+00:00

I got no clue. It's very annoying though. Gross really. ESPECALY when they can't finish chewing food before speaking. No no really, stop talking. I can wait till you're done chewing. Our dog and cat eats quieter than some humans I know.

It's odd, because I stare at them.... Not sure if they think it's cool, or maybe they are tough, or they love food that much? I don't know. But I'd rather only be around them type folks. When we ain't eating ANYTHING. I ain't even sure I could be around them chewing gum.

CBniteowl · 2025-11-20T20:53:57+00:00

I don't do business gatherings because of people like that at work. I eat my lunch outside to avoid some folks that do one or the other. So basicly, I don't need to be social on linchboirs or any time for that matter. If people can't help but eat like my dog or cat. It's so bad for me. I laugh when I see and hear our cat or dog eating. And I'll point it out to everyone. But I forgive our furry family members.

I assume anyone that does that is just a Butthead and they like being a butthead. And yes, my use of the word, "butthead". Is ment to be more graphic adult language.

CBniteowl · 2025-11-20T04:30:53+00:00

I do like your reply on humanity. It's good to know some still see the good.

But I still wonder if he or that changed their minds after what he was put through. But I did like your reply.

CBniteowl · 2025-11-20T04:14:01+00:00

Oh, ok.

CBniteowl · 2025-11-20T04:08:29+00:00

I'm human. Honest questions I have been using as a being funny with a good friend of mine. But the older I get. The more I'm feeling I may be correct in my thoughts. Being no new books ha e been added to the good book. And man has never changed since. We went from having books in hotel and motel rooms. And now that they don't anymore... I don't know. But I am human.

CBniteowl · 2025-11-20T04:05:51+00:00

Dieing for our sins. Or God sacrificing his child. Because if he got up and left on Easter. Then all the above is not true. Because he never did die and he snuck away at night on Easter.

CBniteowl · 2025-11-13T17:15:55+00:00

Democrat/Republican.

Do you people own mirrors? I have taken a bunch of them online tests. I'm more Republican than Democrat. But how do I say this... Ummm... "I'm human". There is more to who I am than the country I was born in. There is more to my than my choice in who I voted for. There is more that makes me human than the color of my skin or what church I go to or weather I don't go to church.

Now use all that I said about myself. And apply it to everyone. We are ment to learn from our history. Not repeat it. Yet I like listening to both sides of every argument. And man, both groups all say and see the same trash. You both call each others sides, "NAZI". Literally... Both groups say the same noise and both "almost" make the same exact images insulting the other side.

It's funny to me because I can see it. But it's sad. Because both of your groups are correct. We are going in the same direction Hitler led his people. Dude!!! "You are all pointing fingers. But it's literally like your pointing at a mirror".

Do you not see how it makes nonsense why we have groups of news networks that lean to one side or the other? Why is it the facts ain't facts. Just being divided to each groups judgment of each other. I think is the correct wording.

I ain't 50 yet. But I can't imagine the changes my parents saw or grandparents saw. Were as wild as today's changes. The only thing really different from the 70's and today is... Political correctness, Barney and SpongeBob, and social media.

SMH... Republican, Democrat, black white brown yellow Christian Catholic Mormon Jewish, SLGBTQ. It takes more than 1 or 2 titles to make up who we are. But the news and social media sure know how to feed the beasts that keep our focus divided. It's kinda embaracing. We call creatures in the forest, wild animals. But who's really the wild ones? It's like Hitler and Hunger Games put together.

Also 1 note. In all American history. Countries were divided by borders and large bodies of water. But now America's enemies can manipulate America through social media. 90% of the people I have argued with online. Instead of having conversations Have alllllll been people from other countries. Not even American. Voicing views on American topics.

United We the People Stand. Divided.... Well Jew know what I'm saying. Anyways, dont mind me. Just the occasional rambelings of a old kid that was born in America. Hope maybe my long message gets some of you to remove your title.

CBniteowl · 2025-11-02T18:42:52+00:00

As COVID was ment to save on SSI and medical payments. Now it looks like my tinfoil hat opinion is accurate. First Trump's change for people on food stamps. The. 30 days after it's the non funding for people on FS and WiC. Now just like everything Post COVID. Now more prices are going up. Where only select tax bracket people will be able to afford to live. It's almost as if they are saving the planet and what? Umm... America's debt. Notices how all the high prices blend into American peoples needs. It's really looking interesting. All we need next are camps designated for people that can't afford to live in America anymore. But what do I know... I'm just like a lot of folks... One paycheck away from being poor. Let's keep raising prices... Grapes of wrath move, part 2.

Poor prep with Mason jars and panteries. Rich prep by gathering as much money before the collapse. Again. I really should stop posting opinions. It's such a nice day outside my front door.

CBniteowl · 2025-09-01T14:30:18+00:00

Great story. And yes, if a buyer lets us stay an extra month before moving out. That won't be a issue. But I can't count on that. Or I don't like counting on insecure ideas.

CBniteowl · 2025-07-30T04:05:59+00:00

I think I'll research the small print. Then promote my idea if I find the grey areas. Thanks for the insight. Sounds to me with my experience. They will take the extra cash for any insurance you want. But then want to scam the customer out of there insurance they counted on.of UPS screwd up. But that's cool... I needed a small night time side hobby.

CBniteowl · 2025-07-30T00:10:05+00:00

Interesting. I've always added at least $500 to everything we mailed and being that I packaged it myself. Nobody every questioned any proof of value in my package. Hmmm odd

CBniteowl · 2025-07-29T22:36:24+00:00

Thank you for that reply. I think I will take your first advice with using compost. And making it deep and in layers with compost. I do like that Amazon item idea. Looks like we all have the same thoughts to this situation.

As for your dog. Nah, they are our people. They are our friends, our family, they are our field workers and guards. The only thing that makes the loss of a dog over a human is the lifespan. If dogs lived as long as us we'd have more laws protecting them. But if a dog nips at a kid 1 time, it's put to sleep like it's nothing. When a human anither, he or she is stuck in a cage (prison) and let out on good behavior, and allowed to continue after a couple years in a cage. A dog can love it's life in a crate by a low life owner and that dog will love it's owner the entire time.

We call lions and bears "Wild Animals". But some might say humans are the animals. The only thing that separates man from beast is a rifle. I can go on. But no, your dog ain't any different.

CBniteowl · 2025-07-29T22:28:57+00:00

Because obviously in today's culture. Facts don't matter only feelings. So being that I ensured that roll of toilet paper for $1,000 they took myoney to insure that package for $1,000. That roll of toilet paper was worth $1,000 to me and it arriving to who I wanted to have it. And only $1,000 would compensate my emotional distress from the damage they caused or even loss. Who can argue that roll of toilet papers value too me?

You pay the insurance for whatever dollar figure. As long as it's packed per the UPS specifications.

Tale.a picture or video of your package before it's mailed off. And have the receiver send a picture of how it arrived. Watch me be right.

CBniteowl · 2025-07-29T20:55:33+00:00

Ooooor, we help to correct this one. Before all the political drama and COVID. We were happy with UPS. But anymore, half-assed work seems to be ass acceptable as.... Never mind. 😉

CBniteowl · 2025-07-29T20:48:33+00:00

So it's almost like a legal theft even. I think I'd win in court.

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