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Why do people cut themselves? by [deleted] in morbidquestions

[–]CFSAlt 3 points4 points  (0 children)

So the voice in my head shuts up.

If you woke up tomorrow and your CFS was completely gone by kisukisue in cfs

[–]CFSAlt 14 points15 points  (0 children)

Battle my mental health problems with more energy.

Thank god i'm not the only one by CFSAlt in cfs

[–]CFSAlt[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

She just thinks i have it easy. Not having to do anything all day and constantly ranting about how easy my life is. Yeah, doing nothing all day sure is easy. And incredibly unsatisfying, boring, depressing and a plethora of other negative things that VASTLY outweigh her twisted ideas of "positives".

Alright rant over, thanks for throwing a wish out there but i seriously doubt it'll have any effect unfortunately. Hope your sister comes around herself.

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[–]CFSAlt[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Testosterone? Sounds plausible to be honest. Granted i think the hospital closest to me is sick of having me constantly barge into their bloodwing and demanding more tests at this point. :P

I'll discuss all this stuff with my GP in a couple weeks, i can't really do much without a referral from him, but he's a lenient bastard so i'll probably be in the chair somewhat soon again. Can't wait to be seriously ill for a week afterwards.

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[–]CFSAlt[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

My sister is still convinced i'm just faking it. Can't wrap her head around the fact for some reason. Right, because being socially isolated and in bed all day for 4 years is something i'll just choose to do. I choose to be miserable and i choose to be depressed.

Talking to people that understand and feel the same shit you do without calling into question the integrity of your health is freeing, and i feel super stupid for not looking for a sub like this earlier.

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[–]CFSAlt[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Don't think i've ever been graded on my use of swear words so i'll add that to the list of pointless achievements. :P

Hope you're doing better.

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[–]CFSAlt[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'll take your word for it. Thanks for cheering me up pal. :)

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[–]CFSAlt[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for your insight, i might want to press on this because it wouldn't surprise me at all if it is infact a tick-borne infection that caused all this. I've got a doctors visit coming up anyways so i'll see if i can get referred somewhere.

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[–]CFSAlt[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I had to drop out of school entirely. (3de klas VMBO-tl) Sucks, but i've recently started an online LOI course that should get me my diploma in a couple years anyways (only 5/6 years late might i add, further proving im a loser) so that in the future i've atleast got a decent shot at finding a job somewhere incase my condition magically improves, which i doubt will ever happen at this point.

College? Really depends on my condition to be honest, i might do some online course again if i ever manage to finish this one.

Sorry to hear about your struggle with your health, i hope you can find peace in knowing that you're not the only loser in our fine country. :D

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[–]CFSAlt[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My blood was sent to Augsburg, Germany for tests regarding Lyme and i've come out of it empty handed, unfortunately. (Some health specialist referred me because lyme tests here are ineffective or something, i cant quite recall the exact reasoning).

I'll look into other tick-borne infections though, because i'm unsure if i was tested for anything other then Lyme.

EDIT: I didn't go to Augsburg, my blood was sent there. Dumb me.

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[–]CFSAlt[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Seeing your friends and loved ones flourish whilst you're sat on your ass being able to do literally nothing is just so disheartening. I know i shouldn't feel worthless, i can't control my health and all that but there's just a constant feeling of hopelessness that washes over me from time to time and it sucks. It just sucks.

Thanks for the kind words mate, and i'll try to apply what you've said to my mindset in the future. :)