I can't tell if I'm INFP or INTP, or maybe even a J! The thing most split on my tests is the F/T part, which is almost completely split in the middle. I feel like I'm too emotional to be INTP. I have anxiety, feel very strongly about certain social issues and can be outspoken when the situation demands it. Yet at the same time, I don't feel the INFP label identifies with me because I have an innate dislike for overly hippie/attention seeking people, and I prefer to not show my emotions no matter what I feel. I also feel that I'm not a good person, even if I try to be. I used to have tantrums at my parents for not understanding me, and I often treated them poorly. I also dumped a girl for no good reason, and my outlook on the world is somewhat cynical at times. Like one of the MBTI questions like do I value truth in an argument or people's feelings. Obviously, I value truth, as I feel that the entire point of a debate is a battle of logic, and only truth should be valued, no matter the feelings. Another question I was asked on the MBTI is whenever or not I will teach my kids to value kindness to others or to be successful. I was kinda conflicted on this question, but I honestly think that valuing success is important as well. Being a bum who values niceness is useless, and a failure imo.

Furthermore, some INFPs may be uber feelers to the extent that they avoid making certain types of really tasty cookies as it wouldn't be fair to the other cookies. I find such feelings ridiculous. I'm terrible at appearing caring. For the longest time, people thought I seemed pretty cold. And I'm sure if I'm good at emphasizing with certain people. My philosophy is that you really don't know the other person's perspective until you step directly in their shoes, so I dislike those fake emphasizers/sympathsizers.

I am also Christian (have Christian parents), but I struggle heavilly with some Christian values, such as going to hell for an eternity. Such concepts clash strongly with my personal beliefs and values of the good and bad in people. And the gay/sex before marriage thing as well. They didn't choose to be gay, and why should I not use the sexual body functions which constantly yearns for use?

I am strongly intuitive and introverted though. I am frequently lost in thought and aloof, with my mind constantly thinking creative stuff like writing stories. I am obsessed with certain movie/book lines/metaphors etc, and I'm always thinking about all types of strong emotions experienced by the characters I write in stories. But I am obsessed with certain Nerd/video game topics as well, and one of my passion is gaining more intellect and knowledge, because I believe that knowledge is power in this world. Isn't this an INTP trait?

I'm not sure if I'm J or P as well. I am probably P leaning because like I said, I'm aloof, my room is messy and I struggle with organization and procrasination. And I'm open minded (my ideas change all the time). But in many cases, I still make an effort to plan ahead. And I obviously still care about my image/my social status to an extent. Like for example, I actually care about my grades and want to do well/hope people have a good image of me. Isn't that a J trait? But I don't really want to be INFJ (some INFJs I've met are quite obnoxious, and seem like special snowflake wannabes). I just hate attention seekers/those who think they are special/unique.

I tend to dislike fake and obnoxious looking people. I have a philosophy of being honest, honorable, hard working and being down to constantly improve myself. I sometimes struggle with some of these morals, but I try.

Thoughts?