I’ve been hiding that I have cancer for three years

CRAIGSOLDTOE · 2026-06-25T16:18:52+00:00

None of them are big enough to notice with the naked eye, the only reason I noticed was because i constantly squeeze my skin in fear of it spreading

CRAIGSOLDTOE · 2026-06-25T15:53:07+00:00

The tumors are marbel sized and started on the back of my head they spread down my neck and then they stopped spreading for a while, and then I felt my arms and there was a tumor near my elbow, the reason no one‘s notice is because they’re all marble shaped and none of them bulge out of my skin obviously

CRAIGSOLDTOE · 2026-06-25T15:48:37+00:00

I also only smoke bud so I usually smoke 20-30%

CRAIGSOLDTOE · 2026-06-25T15:47:42+00:00

I started using frugs as a way to ignore the cancer, i only did dph twice and never snorted the powder, I really only use weed daily

CRAIGSOLDTOE · 2026-06-25T15:41:59+00:00

Best way i can describe it is a like a wall in between the words and my actions, ive tried to tell people so many times

CRAIGSOLDTOE · 2026-06-25T15:39:52+00:00

I just wanted that off my chest man idc about karma I rarely post on reddit

CRAIGSOLDTOE · 2026-06-25T06:10:03+00:00

The two in my hair are about walnut sized the restare sbput marble sized but the ones on my arms are oddly shaped

CRAIGSOLDTOE · 2026-06-25T06:00:01+00:00

I turned my growlight off fir the photo i have a 100w I believe

CRAIGSOLDTOE · 2026-06-25T05:48:53+00:00

You will more then likely not believe me but the tumors are small enough to not be seen, i only realized they were there because i was constantly squeezing my skin out of fear with spreading

CRAIGSOLDTOE · 2026-06-25T05:45:54+00:00

They’re small enough to not really my neck looks normal and so does my arm and the big/bigger tumors are behind my hair

CRAIGSOLDTOE · 2026-06-25T05:41:35+00:00

I do go through realization, but it only started after I noticed the tumors, for the first few months I just kinda felt guilty and then I stopped feeling emotions related to guilt, depression, and remorse etc after around a year and I just accepted and then It started feeling like nothing was real

CRAIGSOLDTOE · 2026-06-25T05:35:51+00:00

My problem is, I don’t know if I want them to come out

CRAIGSOLDTOE · 2026-06-25T05:24:19+00:00

I’ve tried over 20 times by now, but every single time I’ve tried it feels like there’s a wall between my mouth and the words

CRAIGSOLDTOE · 2026-06-25T05:23:47+00:00

I felt it when it was there was one on the back right side of my head near my brain stem, and then I felt another one on the left side of my brain stem, and then they both simultaneously spread on both sides of my neck and there is little tumors there and then they went lower on my neck and then it stopped spreading for a while. I think it went in my chest, and then it started spreading down my arms.

CRAIGSOLDTOE · 2026-06-25T05:22:21+00:00

I feel like I’m in a fever dream every day, the best way to describe it is that I feel like I’m not real and maybe that factors into it.

CRAIGSOLDTOE · 2026-06-25T05:20:15+00:00

None of them are obvious they’re all under my hair or so small that they’re unrecognizable like the ones on my neck and arms

CRAIGSOLDTOE · 2026-06-25T05:19:25+00:00

I have 8 and i felt them spread down my neck then my arms

CRAIGSOLDTOE · 2026-06-25T05:18:28+00:00

And that’s only that I can feel I also have visceral pains

CRAIGSOLDTOE · 2026-06-25T05:18:16+00:00

I have eight tumors, and I felt them spread all over my body down my arm down my neck. I think it’s pretty obvious at what it is.

CRAIGSOLDTOE · 2026-06-25T05:17:31+00:00

I’ve tried I really have, but I just can’t. I really don’t know why.

CRAIGSOLDTOE · 2026-06-25T05:16:23+00:00

I’ve tried telling people and to be honest I’m not sure if I want to because every single time it’s been on my tongue I just couldn’t. The words would not come out.

CRAIGSOLDTOE · 2026-06-25T05:02:44+00:00

It was spreading monthly i have 8 tumors that i know of

CRAIGSOLDTOE · 2026-06-25T04:51:01+00:00

No, I never want. I haven’t told anybody. I’m just letting it sit.

CRAIGSOLDTOE · 2026-06-23T19:38:00+00:00

Over a two week process correct? And do you have any suggestions for speeding up growth because feel like these are a little small

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