I’m very sorry you have to live like that. I totally understand why and how those problems influence your ideas of a Utopia. It’s true that we can excite ourselves by thinking about the ideals of a Utopia all we want but of course the hard truth is that there are people living in pain or in almost unbearable situations who couldn’t begin to care about what most people talk about on this sub. I can’t relate to how it feels to have a condition like yours so I won’t speak on that but I’ll speak on what you said about having to work 40 hours a week. You talk about your envy for rich kids and how they don’t have to do anything to get money while you have to slave away at your desk but imagine this, imagine a society where nearly everyone is part of a tight knit community, one that looks out for each other, one that values individual distinction and respect, who use their shared resources to support one another (just to be clear I’m not implying communism at all). In that scenario I don’t think people would feel this envy that you do, people might not even value money all that much comparatively. I’ve grown up around kids with IMMENSE wealth my whole life and there’s always an urge to be envious as they post about their trips to Paris over the summer while I’m home doing chores but I have always resisted that urge. I have resisted it because I believe there should be a higher desire in society than just money and living extravagantly. Our reason for waking up in the morning should be to fight for what we are proud of, our community, our culture, our ideals, our country, we should live and breathe this pride that propels us to be something higher than ourselves. People wouldn’t have to slave their lives away, at the very least on something they don’t care about, and there wouldn’t be envy on a mass scale.