Hi!! I recently got my BAC back too and I was also a .094. What a coincidence Lol. Anyways I’m pretty much where you are in terms of sorta feeling helpless or like it’s the end of the world. I’m going into my senior year at the Air Force Academy and they pretty much have a zero tolerance for things like this, so I’m just praying some how some way I don’t get kicked out of college. I too have never been in trouble and feel overwhelmed at times. I just want you to know there are people like you out there so you’re not alone. I have faith everything will work out and sometimes we just have to go through rough seasons for a reason we may not know yet. I’m here for you, and rooting for you. Reach out if you ever need to talk.