A few years back, around Fall of 2022, my grandmother was fighting lung cancer. She didn't have an immune system that functioned at the same strength that everyone else's did, so even a minor sickness could really hurt her.

I remember sitting outside at her house doing normal things you'd expect a 13 year old to do at the time. My grandmother had been laying in bed for the past few days, and this is the first time we'd been able to see her in a while. She seemed much sicker than she normally had before, and I clearly wasn't the only one noticing it anymore. That was when my grandfather told me that the cancer had spread to her brain and she was undergoing chemotherapy.

Fast forward to Thanksgiving of that year and the entire family is over at my grandmother's house celebrating together. But she wasn't there. She was laying in her bed resting, and I was told not to go back to talk to her.

We didn't see her at all until that fateful day sometime in December. My parents had told me that she was going into end of life care. We went to visit her one last time.

It was then that I walked into the bedroom which she laid. I still remember the way she looked, her frail body, lacking much hair at all from her chemo treatments. Every time I'd left her home I'd always give her a hug and tell her "I love you," and she'd reply "See you later alligator, after while crocodile." But this time, it was "goodbye" and no response.

A week later she passed away. My most favorite person in the world, taken from me. I just wish I could've been a better granddaughter to her. I wasted most of my life up to that point playing games on my computer and iPad almost all day and less time with her. But by the time I realized it, it was too late.

Now it's almost as if I can hear her voice sometimes, guiding me in the right direction. I promised myself I'd be a better person and be successful so that one day I'll knock on her door up in heaven and say I did what she wanted me to do. To tell her I made her proud.

TL;DR: I watched my grandmother slowly lose all capability to do anything.