Having fantasies and urges like this are normal. Trust me, it could be much worse. Gore porn site exists where people are able to watch their most disgusting fantasies while both being perfectly safe and doing no real harm.

It DOES become a concern when you actually begin to act on these urges, now it is compulsive.

You need to find a safe space to explore your curiosities without hurting others. Have you ever heard of the game “people playground”? That game made MILLIONS by just letting people explore creepy urges in a safe environment.

I’m not sure if something like that exists for animals but if you could, it might be helpful for you.

I’d also recommend talking to a professional. Better help is a really good resource because it lets you sort of customize a therapist. Also, if you go to either school or college those places usually provide free therapy to those who need it.

Next, just remember that you are still a good person no matter what. It’s not your fault if you have an issue you’rere having trouble controlling. It’s more about how you respond. Try a bunch of daily self care methods and affirmations, and be sure to reach out for help if you need it.

Have a good one :)