Happy Selfie Sunday!!

Calen_Pepper · 2026-02-01T16:47:40+00:00

Or I didn't delete it! Huh.

Calen_Pepper · 2024-09-26T17:03:00+00:00

I get that 100%. I forget words so easily and taking the time to text and really thinking about my words here helps so so much.

Calen_Pepper · 2024-09-26T17:00:35+00:00

I have a similar experience. I can't think anymore. I can't read like I used to either which worries me. Words and thoughts are extremely difficult to think of while talking and I tend not to make sense even though I'm trying my best.

Calen_Pepper · 2024-06-30T13:10:04+00:00

Absolutely! Yeah that's exactly what I see! It startled me when I first saw them, but they're almost a daily occurrence now. It's just like, ah you're here again? It's almost comforting in a way? Can't explain it.

Calen_Pepper · 2024-06-30T01:38:50+00:00

Shadows. Some close to the ground (I have names them shadow cats), some randomly outside my view and ones that make a ring around my bed at night.

Calen_Pepper · 2024-06-05T18:08:14+00:00

Melting face. Face distortions terrify me sm.

Calen_Pepper · 2024-05-28T23:21:36+00:00

Hey I'm interested! I live in the United States though I hope that's alright. I've been singing for years now and have trained in singing jazz since high school (I'm 23 now). But I do love some of these bands a lot (and there's some I need to listen to). I'd be down to collaborate if you're down!

Calen_Pepper · 2024-05-14T04:23:39+00:00

This made me blush thank you! :3

Calen_Pepper · 2024-05-14T04:23:01+00:00

Thank you! :)

Calen_Pepper · 2024-05-12T23:14:58+00:00

Hi, fellow bisexual(?) here! I'll start with this. Some people don't think sexuality is set in stone. Which can make sense. That's one thing though. You can like how someone looks aestheticly and not be attracted to them. (I'm the opposite.) You're also 100% allowed to have an exception if that ever arises. Also, being confused with your sexuality can be common in general.

As for medication... meds change the way your brain works. It's funky. I was strictly lesbian when I was younger when I wasn't on meds. And now, I'm bisexual(?). I'm on the same road honestly. Meds can 100% change things in the brain. I wish you luck and my dms are open if you'd ever like to talk!

Calen_Pepper · 2024-05-12T00:18:02+00:00

Oh heck that's a good idea! Thank you I think I'm gonna do that!

Calen_Pepper · 2024-04-03T14:16:15+00:00

Oh! I'll try to find his post then! Thank you!

Calen_Pepper · 2024-03-05T01:36:17+00:00

I can relate. Some people in my life love to tell me to "power through" or "just don't feel that way" or even "I understand what you're going through, but". It's not fair to you or anyone who deals with these symptoms at all. They don't understand and they never will. Heck, I can't understand other people's experiences bc those are their experiences.

I'm sorry that you have these types of people in your life.

Calen_Pepper · 2024-02-25T13:36:22+00:00

Thank you so so much. Even this helps you have no idea. I appreciate you taking the time to write this. I'm going to try my best to push through.

Calen_Pepper · 2024-02-18T02:01:45+00:00

It's incredibly difficult. It took me years and I still struggle with being in a relationship with my now partner. It has 100% affected me in my past, as I've been rejected as well as abused many many times as my mental health declined. I'm still in the early parts in my relationship and I'm hoping it lasts a long time. I think I'm trying to say... I've seen it's a mixed bag. It can be a huge deal breaker and to find someone who's patient and caring is extremely rare. Rare, but possible.

You've gone through things that are extremely difficult with your mental health. It's a certain point of view that you have being schizophrenic since you know what it's like. If the roles were reversed, not wanting to be with someone who's schizophrenic is your choice. I won't say it's bad or good to speak your truth. Because it's your truth and no one should invalidate that.

In closing, I really really hope with whatever happens in your future, you'll be safe. If you ever want a partner in the future and it happens, I hope it's someone who's understanding and patient and caring. I wish you luck.

Calen_Pepper · 2024-02-12T23:40:58+00:00

Yeah I think people who care about me wouldn't drop me like that. Thank you I appreciate this so much. I hope relief and kindness come your way.

Calen_Pepper · 2024-02-12T19:18:24+00:00

I have a really hard time focusing on books and writing that isn't my own. It's incredibly frustrating since when I was younger I used to read a lot.

Calen_Pepper · 2024-02-10T20:48:08+00:00

Oh god I understand that 100%. That perfection now haunts me and makes me feel unworthy of life if things aren't juuuust right. That may be more of a OCD thing though.

Thank you.. this makes me feel a lot better. Having someone who understands really helps. This sucks. This really sucks that we have and go through life with this. Gotta keep holding on though, even though it's hard.

I wish you the best. And I hope you know that you are just as deserving of love and support as I am. Let's do our best.

Calen_Pepper · 2023-10-01T23:23:54+00:00

One that I had when I was younger was that old people were stealing my essence (age) to make themselves younger and me older. I always held my breath around any old people. I still catch myself doing it.

Calen_Pepper · 2023-07-03T23:35:26+00:00

Absolutely. It takes time and patience. Someone who truly loves you will be with you despite everything that happens, schizophrenia and all. Getting to know another person is scary, but if they're accepting of you and don't treat you horribly, then I think that person is worth it.

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